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Sunday, May 4, 2008 | A Rambling story

so,its been almost 2 weeks since my surgery,things went so very well,even the doctors were surprized!but of course,most of the people they deal with that have my diagnosis are much older...anyways ,i feel blessed that i was in good physical condition to begin with...that helped alot. as for smoking..of course i havent..but i still am getting some pretty powerful urges...ive been off my Chantix since the day before surgery,as i cant eat any solid foods and am scared to get sick like i did before...im not allowed to eat or drink anything by mouth...i have a feeding tube that goes in my nose down to my stomache...Ensure is what i eat...1 can-4 times a day...pretty easy actually..no fuss,no mess..just open a can and pour it in one of those bags like is for an IV and plug in...thats all there is to my dinner prep!as i was saying about my ciggy cravings... i guess its true what they say about them maybe never going away...every once in a while it just hits me....man,it would be nice to have a drag off a ciggy...but its never so bad that i would actually WANT one..if that makes any sense? So..i go back to the Mayo on the 9th to get my feeding tube out and to meet with Dr.J.E.Thomas(im dropping his name because he really is the big cheese when it comes to learning to talk again with no real vocal cords...i feel blessed that he has agreed to be my doctor!im very excited for that.........but the other reason im going to Mayo that im NOT so thrilled about(and i havent disclosed this info to any of my friends yet,is that in preparation for my throat surgery;they of course run alot of tests...welll`seems i have a severe heart valve problem(was born withit and didnt know it was serious till now)that reguires heart surgery...immediately ..as soon as i am healed enough from all this current cancer stuff...so it seems ive got a bit of a climb left till my life can resume anything close to normalcy...i apologize for going on and on and thanks to anyone who stuck thru all the ranting to the end...keep

up the good fight my friends...it will all be worth it in the end...your friend...debbie

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Hi Debbie, it's good to hear from you. You do have a mountain to climb and it looks as though you're getting to the top and then you'll walk carefully down the other side. I find your attitude to be so amazing and couragious. Isn't the Nicodemon one powerful entity? Imagine all you've been through and the craves can still come. I've got almost 9 months and had a pretty bad one myself the other night. I will be thinking of you on the ninth and surrounding you with healing and good thoughts. Take care Beautiful Lady!

Shell7
Oh Debbie, I'm so sorry to hear about that heart problem and surgery. When it rains it pours they say.. You will continue to be in my prayers. I have to tell you, your attitude about your throat cancer, your surgery and recovery and your quit is really an inspiration to me (and I'm sure to others as well). You have such a positive attitude it's just great. Thanks for sharing this with us.

DrummerDan
Hi There, It's me Sandy. Just read your post.I admire your courage. Stay with us on DS. Your story is helping so many people I'm sure. Love and Blessings......

Sandy JD
Hi Debbie, I was so glad to see you had left a message disscussion, Your a real inspiration to me, a very Special amazing lady in so many ways. The Ensure does a great job when you can't eat.It will help build you up. You take care and thanks so much for letting everyone know how your doing, you will always remain in my prayers.

lov12
Debbie you provide so much inspiration. I will pray for youe strength and health.

lyndylou12
Stay strong Debbie.You have a battle ahead but you will win,we are all here cheering you on and praying for you.

wen47