LostLadyLen’s Profile

Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/Spouse

I am still haven't completely absorbed the fact that my husband is not coming back. back. I'll never feel his arms around me again. I can't tell him how very sorry I am that I didn't take better care of him. I am beginning to understand how it was that I let "those damned Xtians" walk all over us - to the detriment of his well-being - the one I treasured more than anyone else.

Treatments

Crying Not Working

I rarely cry, but once in a while - out of the blues, the tears come.

Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful

Had an "break-thru" and realized that, in spite of all the loving words, the ppl I am angry at never saw us as human beings. Suddenly I realized, it was "Nothing Personal" and the rage faded.

Grief Counseling Working / Worked

When I can, I am going to try this.

Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful

Am making progress in tackling things with the future in mind, even though the only future I want is one with him in it. Yet, even when busy, the grief comes out of nowhere, now stronger than ever.

Music Not Working

Up beat music makes me feel guity. Sad music only makes me feel worse.

Pets Considering

Prayer Not Working

My idea of a waste of time - but to each their own.

Psychotherapy Considering

Going for it as soon as I can.

Reading Somewhat Helpful

Once in a while I splurge on a book - money is tight right now. But reading is a big help.

Support from Friends & Family Not Working

Not much in the way of family - most don't know. My few friends expect me to be OK. I pretend that I am, for their sakes. It's easier all around. Would have been nice to have someone nearby who's shoulder I could literally cry on, but... have learned to accept it.

Support Groups Working / Worked

Getting imput from others on DS is a big help. Not comfortable talking about feelings with friends outside of DS. Maybe someday.

Talking Working / Worked

BIG, BIG help. Dealing with anger in a construtive way is helping me to focus.

Time Not Working

Ha. The only way this would help would be if I could turn back the clock!

Close Widows & Widowers

Husband passed away after being bedridden for several years... I miss my husband, I miss my purpose...