Summer
June 17, 2008 12:08pm
Well, the summer is here, and so are the kids, day in and day out. Gillie is holding on pretty well. Perry has come back asking for …
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About Me
Hi all! I'm a New Yorker displaced here in West Virginia, though I couldn't ask for a better place to exist! I'm a 48 year old mother of two tween girls (that in itself should tell you alot). I teach special ed on the elementary level. I love the outdoors, helping others, and learning. I am challenged being a single mom with a daughter diagnosed with bi-polar/ADHD/gifted. I hate being single (though it's certainly preferable to the verbally abusive and physically intimidating ex) I have found that unless you have a disorder that people can see, they aren't very empathetic; in fact I don't think they really believe me when I explain why I do the things my narcolepsy does to me. It's especially hard when I am asleep but continue to do things as though I were awake; evidently I speak some kind of gibberish when in this state. Or when I fall asleep when they don't want me to! (I do like that I can fall asleep anywhere though!)
Interests
hiking; hanging w/my friends; rock concerts; driving fast- sun roof open - music playing loud; reading; listening to Hearts of Space to fall asleep... then again, I could fall asleep on a corner of New York City during rush hour!
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June 17
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LIgirl wrote a journal entry: Summer 12:08pm
Well, the summer is here, and so are the kids, day in and day out. Gillie is holding on pretty well.…
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LIgirl commented on malice1’s journal entry Hard headed 1:13am
As a parent and a teacher, who has seen too many children kept with their parents because they were their…
May 17
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LIgirl turned 49 12:00am
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my baby
May 31, 2008 11:34am
how do i help her? her bipolar is so hard to manage. i'm scared for her.
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Trying hard to love myself
May 8, 2008 8:23pm
Two of my good friends here had me list my good qualities. As I said to them, on paper I am awesome. then why don't i see it? …
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I dare you to run!
May 2, 2008 10:51pm
I dare you to lift yourself up from the floor!
I dare you to run!
I dare you to run!
welcome to the fallout
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Thank you for your comment on my journal. You are right she is thinking of only herself. Im just trying to be careful as to which bridges I burn. If you know what I mean?
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Good Luck
I know how hard it is as my son is on a daily roller coaster....ever since puberty hit and the meds stopped working so well its been quite a struggle, the daily "episodes'...and the cycles of sad emotions. One thing I would say is not participate in the arguments, hug her when she gets emotional, and avoid power struggles....with Dad gone, things may be more peaceful but you have to watch yourself not to continue to chaos with the chaos man gone. I remember leaving my ex, I couldnt handle having a child and a man with the same major issues. It was the easiest thing I've ever done. If you want to be prepared for a battle, which he may give you. ...keep a diary of events and record your calls...so when he crosses the line, you can get a protective order. Be careful with him, guys like that get crazy and controlling.....Im here to listen, and ty to live a little and enjoy those kids.
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Close Narcolepsy
Diagnosed 3 years ago, and have been frustrated ever since trying to find a medication plan that the insurance company will approve. Combination medications seem to work best. I feel very overwhelmed with this disorder, as the medications that I have tried have all had side effects that change who I am as a person... I just want to stay AWAKE!
Treatments
- Adderall Working / Worked
- worked, but didn't last long enough through the day.
- Provigil Somewhat Helpful
- just a little.
- Ritalin Working / Worked
- too much of a drop when it wore off.
- Vyvanse Working / Worked
- Okay... though I feel more depressed than usual.
- Xyrem Not Working
- almost killed me, literally. Woke up wanting to vomit, but couldn't; could't breath, heart attack symptoms.... then noone at the hospital had any understanding of it.
Close Healthy Relationships
I am the queen of choosing the wrong man. My dad said that I always pick 1's that need fixed. Lets see, controlling, abusive, emotionally unavailable men... I guess my insecurities lead me to undervalue myself and cling to relationships that leave me vulnerable and further insecure. Those around me can't understand it. They are astonished to learn this, when what they see is a pretty, intelligent, thoughtful and fun woman! I just want to love and be loved.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- Both times the counselor told me to leave my ex-husbands. Good decision both times.
- Patience Too Soon to Tell
- Putting it in God's hands to help me find the right man.
- Talking Not Working
- You can't stop a tsunami!
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Brings me back to reality when I get too depressed.
Open Bipolar Disorder - Teen
My beautiful tween is BP and ADHD, and I don't know how to help her. I hope some of you can give me some advice. She sees two Dr.s for therapies, but I'm scared of what lies in her future.
Treatments
Open Breakups & Divorce
3 years and too many secrets. That's my relationship, or the one I'm trying to get away from. Lets see, kissed my best friend in my kitchen while they were supposed to be there for me as my daughter had just been hospitalized for her Bi-Polar. Had a "secret" friend for months that he talked to every day (she called him 200 times in one month), yet can't seem to answer mine. Is content with being intimate maybe once a month, even kissing! Drinks entirely too much. Lives next door!!!
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- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Works for him!!!
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- I find I'm more at peace.
- Music Working / Worked
- Rock out hard! Gets the rage out!!!
- Reading Working / Worked
- Great escape!
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- The best! They remind me why I left, when I inevitably get weak!
- Talking Not Working
- Just a short time fix. He's great for a bit, but then it's back to the same ol', same ol'.
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- I'm trying really hard to stay away.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
13 years. That's how long I allowed him to intimidate, bully, control and scare me into losing myself. I finally left with my 2 girls, a car w/ 200,000 miles and no money but at least had a good job. Never regretted leaving, in fact it saved my life.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- When the counselor told me to go to a shelter and file a restraining order, I realized it was worse than I realized.
- Divorce Working / Worked
- Best decision ever!
- Leave Working / Worked
- Best decision ever! I found myself again.
- Music Working / Worked
- Jamming to tunes makes me smile and reminds me that I'm free to be me.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I was able to find the person God had created me to be!
- Talking Not Working
- There's no communicating with someone who thinks being abusive is forgivable and/or deserving.
