March 29, 2008 12:22am
So I finally asked my dear husband not to buy dozens of bags of "good" candy when it goes on sale after the holidays. With Easter …
March 21, 2008 9:29am
OK, so I'm not keeping track of "Days" anymore; sounds too much like I'm in rehab (although, this IS like rehab).
I woke up …
March 20, 2008 8:16am
I picked myself bloody for the past two days; trying to identify triggers:
When my 2 year old gets fussy and I can't fix it.
When I am on the …
March 17, 2008 4:52pm
I was out of the house all morning and afternoon today; that seemed to decrease my picking just by changing my environment! Most of my close …
March 16, 2008 11:15pm
After three solid days of not creating or picking at scabs, I "gave in" today; but, how do you just let the scabs "fall …
Hey, how are you doing?
Heres a great big hug from me to you.
hey. i really don't have a lot of solutions to stop yourself from cutting. i guess just doing something to keep both mind & hands busy. coloring, journaling, writing/painting on yourself. as for the itchiness, try rubbing ointment into it. they sell antibiotic ointments with pain reliever in them. might help. the gem show was interesting. i bought a pretty necklace made of hematite & some multicolored glass beads. it was really pretty & fairly cheap so i had to have it. =) bought dad a really neat ancient fish fossil for his birthday present, too. also hit a cafe & some little local shops afterwards where i bought a magnetic necklace for mom's birthday present. very pretty. anyway, feel free to write again.
i t was so caring of you to take the time to reach out to me....as far as meds are i guess i am scared because i saw my mom on zoloft paxil etc(would go to her regular dr for these for depression no pshychatrist would have even put her on any meds...they ould have told her it was her guilt eating away at her)im also so used to feeling the way i do and my own little thought process that i forget not everyone thinks like me....lastly i am scared to not be in total control.....
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Very new to this; please bear with me! My first memory of life is when the neighbor boy hopped the fence and laid me on the ground, took my pants down, and stuck a lancet needle into my clitoris. There, that's a start. I spent the rest of my life trying to A) fix the hurt down there by masterbating incessantly and B) picking at my body to show everyone how much I was hurting. I've been in and out of counseling and on and off various meds since high school. I'm excited to share this journey.
I was raised with very unhealthy eating patterns; eat the 1/2 gallon of ice cream, the entire box of Twinkies, drink the hot fudge from the jar. Now trying to id triggers that make me fall.
I was recently diagnosed with PTSD, perscribed Paxil, and jumped right into dealing with my past. Horrific sexual abuse. Major trigger episode when I had an emergency C-section to deliver my daughter 3 years ago; they strapped me down to the table. Not good! If anyone else has similar story, please connect w/me. Thanks.
