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Hello Family Mine. Well so far so good. I go today for orientation and my assessment test for college. I am a bit nevrvous buy, it is what it is. I am hoping to have things worked out so I can be in school by start of this semester in Sept. I went and talked to the head man in admissions and told him my story and they are going to let me have in state tution. Bout time something went right up here.
Got my divorce papers in yesterday, it was kinda bittersweet I guess. I talked to my oldest, James, and he said that Cara and he had dinner with his dad and his new wife before they left to go back home. He told me that his dad looked really bad and that he looked like an old man.
Breaks my heart. I thought he was doing better. I know he is happier cause that is what everyone told me. But it seems he is still drinking and drugging himself to death.
I never told anyone how bad it go right before I left. But there were times when I just prayed that he wouldn't kill me. I don't know what all he was on, but, I do know that he was out of his head alot. I don't want anything to happen to him, I do wish that he would get some help though.
Sometime I feel really bad that I left him, but I do have a feeling if I had stay I would have been hurt or worse. I guess I will never really know for sure. Sometimes I wonder that maybe if I had stayed I could have changed him, but, after 25 years it doesn't seem likely. I know that a person has to want to change for themselves.
Anyway just tring to make my way though life right now and to have a life. Brian has been a huge support to me and he is going to help me with my classes if I need it. I told him that I really appreciate it.
Well I am still doing ok, not loosing any more weight right now, but not gaining any either which is a good thing I think..I think my body is at a stand still for right now and after losing 159+ lbs in less than a year, and keeping it off I am not going to complain. I am not giving up either. I kinda talked to the Dr about it and she said that with me loosing so fast my body just needs to catch up.. I still want to loose 25 more lbs that will put me right where I want to be. And my goal it to loose it by March of next Year...
Well guess thats it for now I will try and keep you posted as to what all is going on as it happens, just really staying busy. I hope that you all are doing well and keeping on keeping on.
Love You All
Family Mine
Toby
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So good to hear from you. School, you will have a ball. College seems so relaxed & laid back now. Not like when I first went in 1966.
kellygrn
Good to hear you and B are doing well.
I don't think you could have done anything for your ex and i agree with you they have to want to change for themselves. Just like you - you wanted to loose the weight but if the doctor or anyone had told you to change it wouldn't have happened.
FOR YOURSELF and not someone else
KCJ
Toby, you will do fantastic in school. With your ex- just let the Lord handle him. You cannot change someone, it has to come from within that person. It was good that you were able to get a fresh start in life and good that you are safe and happy. What an amazing journey you have been on. Congratulations on your weight loss and thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. Toby, you are an amazing woman and such an inspiration to me and many others. Thank you again and I pray that all will be well with you and that your future will be magnificent. Be blessed.
violeti
You were absolutely RIGHT to leave. You can't change anyone, but you. I feel sorry for his new wife. You are doing SO great! Going back to school, going through a divorce and no weight gain! Good for you! Love you!
claire604
toby my friend.....you are wrong! you did tell one person about everything that was going on before you left jim! remember? and you should also remember.... what i told you about the whole situation! i am glad that you now have the peace and freedom to just be who you are and not have to walk around afraid anymore! don't torture yourself with feeling bad for having left like you did! sometimes....you just have to do what needs to be done...... no matter who it hurts or how much guilt it makes you feel! you know i know this all.....first hand! remember what i told you about my life had been like!?? just get it right out of your head about all the..... should have....could have....would haves!!! sorry about brian losing his driving job! but...in a way i'm glad too b/c i also know first hand how dangerous being on the road all the time can be! he's a smart guy! he'll figure it all out! keep me posted on both you and him okay? believe it or not...you 'both'.... have meant the world to me! good luck with your college courses and congrats.... on the baby and the new in law! you turned into a beautiful butterfly my friend! luv you with all my heart sis! boomertoo
boomertoo
So proud of you for taking your life back.
Anniegal
Toby, we kinda knew something wasn't right... and divorce is often bittersweet, life spins around and the world opens on a new day. So good to hear that you are taking such positive steps towards the life you want for you. Going to college as an adult has it's benefits over going fresh out of high school. (I went when I was 29.) If there are any adult students on campus organizations, get involved. Such groups are great for making new friends, finding study buddies, etc. Anyway, it's been too long... about time I said hello again. Take care of you! Hugs, Nancy
Mars
Glad to hear you are doing okay. Sounds like you did the right thing in getting out of your marriage. I know it must hurt, 25 years is a long time to be with someone. Me and my husband just celebrated our 25th. Take care of yourself and congraulations on going back to school. Hugs, Mary
justgirl
I am so excited that you are going to school! That is awesome!!!! Congrats! I wish you much luck and success :o)
ElizabethMB