Kurt angry, depressed, and anxious. Part of his mood is due to our finances; part of it is due to politics, especially the economy. I'm VERY reactive to his moods. I feel guilty b/c I have not found a job yet, and b/c of my career in general.
Saturdays are hard, b/c I worked Saturdays up until I lost my job in December.
I think I'm fated to have dysthymia...melancholy.
I love Kurt so much, and I haven't been a good wife to him. That's over.
He's talking about making cuts in our budget, which already squeaks.
He told me last night that if he has to take on free-lance work, he's REALLY going to be crabby.
I need a job--fast.
If you can only grasp what is...and what is not...actually hurting you, you can find peace and comfort in the moment. Remember, oftentimes it's our expectations and our value systems that take a beating and we get so easily self-offended. All you really need is God, health, food, clothes, and each other. I would wager that you will not have to start all over in your lives, like College Students, by the time this is over. Focus on efficiency, if possible and work toward sufficiency. God Bless You, Both!!! You are going to be ok.
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