jennyjenny78's Journal

I'm just a wreck, I had a breakdown last night! I was crying for hours.Treatment is catching up with me, 'm trying to stay strong. These last 19 weeks have been going good but it's changing my life and I'm in denial. I miss so many things, like having a beer. I'm normal to some extent and don't know how to handle it. My boyfriend and i don't get along lately and it's because or relationship revolved around partying. I think it's time for us to move on. I pretty much do alot of things on my own lately.We have no sex life anymore. He said our relationship is stale and I get the feeling he doesn't want to make it better. It's like talking to a wall. All relationships are great in the beginning because it's new, now due to my hep c it changed everything. I knew when I was diagnosed this would be a test of our true love for each other. He just can't handle the new me and that just shows this relationship is not going to work. I'm afraid to be alone because I need companionship, now I'm going to have to rely on family, friends and daily strength. I'm sure this happens to lots of people in my situation. 

I'll be strong I have to and will not let myself down.