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Thursday, March 13, 2008 | A Venting story

This is all new to me. One minute I am running around having fun and the next I am laying on the bed not able to do anything for myself. I am looking in the mirror and all I see is this body laying there with no legs and no arms.

It is hard for me to look. The person is using a stick to type on the computer keyboard. Seems strange. He doesn't look too upset. He looks to be hurting more than anything else. His stubs are still bandaged. I call them stubs, but that isn't right either, There is nothing left oa any of them to call them stubs. They are flush with his torso. I wonder what will happen now. I have a lot of things to try to learn over the next few weeks. What will happen to me, what can I do for myself, how will I live, etc. I have no idea what is happening to me. Hopefully, the doctor's around here can explain it more fully. I heard someone walking out of my room, say something about a flesh eating bacteria. I don't know what that is or what it causes. I have no idea how it would get into my torso anyway. Well, it is bed time, I will try to write more later.

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Hello Halfman31 - I read your post, and wanted to say "Hi". Lots of good people on this website who have 'been there, done that". I am a 49 year old male in Ft. Lauderdale, who lost a leg a year ago. I was taken to Columbia SC by family members, where sickness/infection/gangrene got the best of me. They thought I wasn't going to make it, but the fighter in me got the best of them, so now I'm struggling to move on with getting life back to normal (whatever that is). I wish things were easier, but in the meantime, I can't and won't guve up. Don't you give up, either. Keep in touch....your friend, James

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Hey, thanks for the note. I appreciate what you said. I don't plan on giving up. I am just not sure what has happened to me yet. Like you I almost died, but am still here. I am told that I was as close as one can get and still be here.
Doctors still haven't really explained how I got this way. But hopefully one day they can tell me.
For now I am just laying here and doing what they tell me, which isn't much. I can still move my head, but that is about all.
Again thanks for the note, James and yes, let's stay in contact.

halfman310