Journal Entry for April 17, 2008
April 17, 2008 3:30pm
another week passed, nothing resolved. Getting to be the story of my life here recently. Now on top of everything else, the place I work …
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elizabeth6922
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It would take a whole day of writing to say where I've been in this marriage. I have loved and give and loved and give. I don't know how much more I have...not even for myself. sad really. I have been reading a little here about toxic love, wondering if that describes my relationship with Ronnie. Or am I toxic to myself...All I know is nearly thirteen years together, and I really have not got alot to show for it. i would have been happy with just his love,
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elizabeth6922 wrote a discussion post in the Stroke support group: cried all day...again 7:10pm
i wish all these tears would stop. it's all i seem to do now. i get angry at mysef, but keep getting…
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elizabeth6922 joined the Stroke support group 6:36pm
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elizabeth6922 replied to james021011976’s discussion post Smoking in the Breakups & Divorce support group 3:48pm
my separation caused the extra cig stress,but the stroke I had on june 8th from the cig related blood…
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elizabeth6922 wrote a discussion post in the Breakups & Divorce support group: I've been in the hospital...had a stroke. 7:12pm
hey everybody, on june 7, 2008 i had a stroke, which has left me in the hospital for the last month,…
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my trip to see Ronnie
April 10, 2008 3:27pm
This last Sunday I went to Durham to see Ronnie, for his birthday. I really think he was glad to see me, and I know he was glad to see his …
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Journal Entry for April 4, 2008
April 4, 2008 1:47pm
So today is Friday. I wish I could say That's great but it's just another day on the hill. An upward facing hill. Sunday …
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Journal Entry for March 30, 2008
March 30, 2008 11:10pm
My friends left today, leaving me here to fend for myself again, which i am so use to it's scary. I so appreciate their help …
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Prayer always helps in abundance. I do know what you are feeling for I suffer a stroke in december of 2007. My emotions turn on and off at will. I do realize when one is getting ready to hit so I try to get to myself. The craziest thing is when I have uncontrollable laughter. It is contagious though because all around me start laughing. Well maybe are laughing at me instead of with me. LOL!
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eliz. why do you think your crying? crying is a way the clean your soul.there is nothing wrong with it more people should try it.
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Hope you are feeling better - and cute dog - got one like him/her.
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sorry to hear about your health. i know you will make it through this. it is good to see you are back.
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Close Breakups & Divorce
so many years, so much given, so little given back. I've never asked for anything except to be loved and appreciated, and I feel like I haven't even been given a second glance most days. Problem is, I still love him. And I know he loves me, but he's not "in" love with me. And I need that. I am dying inside. And I am so tired of being always alone.
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- Pets Working / Worked
- God love my puppy...well he's 120lb puppy, but his companionship is priceless. He loves me regardless of what is going on. The good, the bad, and the ugly.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- In a town with few friends and little family, but they try to give the support I need. I love them all
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- I try not to bug people with the day to day stuff, but knowing I am not alone here at least gives me some hope.
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- everyday is a gamble. Some are okay, some just suck.
Close Pregnancy After Loss/Infertility
In Oct 05' I had emergency surgery because of an etopic pregnancy. I was between eight and nine weeks-but unlike most I never had any of the pain. Not one bit. How I knew something was wrong was God I believe. On top of that I was battling the worst case of poison ivy I have ever had. A bad situation...it still haunts me. A bad situation.....
Open Carpal Tunnel Syndrome
In the late 1990's I developed a severe case of Carpel Tunnel. I mean it was bad. I couldn't even brush my own hair, or open a jar, nothing. Surgery was my only option so I had it done. They did one hand and two weeks later they did the other. 10 Years down the road, there are still things I cannot do, or have to limit, but at least most of the pain is gone.
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- Carpal Tunnel Release Surgery Working / Worked
- there are things I will never be able to do like I use to, but i don't live in constant pain any more either.
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