AxleF's Journal

 Since I was here last, my mom passed away.  I miss her SO much!  She hasn't really been here for about a year, yah know, in and out, but for some reason I always thought she would get better.  The hardest part is that I used to call her every day, and I catch myself about to call her pretty often.  She didn't want any services, but we had a memorial service for her ourselves.  It really helped me, and everyone else said they were glad, so I think it was worth it!  I have mixed feelings about my step dad; I really don't want to go see him-because I kind of blame him.  He knew she was diabetic, and yet he brought her drinks (booze) even when she couldn't walk.  That leaves me with bitter feeling toward him.  I am trying to let them go, because I know those feeling won't do anything but hurt me.  It is hard losing your parents.  I didn't realize how hard it would be.  It wasn't so bad when my dad passed away, because I still had my mom.  Now that both of them are gone, it is just hard.  Well, anyway, that is enough of the depressing stuff.  I am gonna move on now that I got that out!