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March 11, 2008 4:59pm
Well, I had fucking two therapy appointments today, i HATE them! I just love being told that I dissociate and I rely on my mom too much. i know that, …
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About Me
My name's Briana Courtney; yes i know I have two first names. I'm so sick of the life I'm living but I hope someday I can be happy with someone I love. I've been fucked over, abandoned, and I know I can't hold on to that anymore. I'm a strong person, even though I can cry for hours. I'm simple, little things like taking a long walk can make me feel so good. I want to be a therapist to adolescents when I'm older. I'm moving to South Carolina for a while to hopefully start over and meet new people. I'm very outgoing and love to laugh. I also love writing poems and reading true crime books and watching documentaries. I like researching religions all over the world.
Interests
Chanel, coffee, taking trips, long car rides, amusement parks, museums.Americas Next Top Model, Project Runway, laughing, people I love, Portsmouth NH, working out, magazines, shopping, reading, writing poems, being outside, swimming, talking on the phone, painting, daydreaming, red bull, JASON CASTRO!
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March 11, 2008 7:41am
Another day of doing nothing. I'm not in school and I'm not working. Every kid that goes to school would love being home but …
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Religion
March 10, 2008 2:42pm
One thing most people know about me is my non belief in god. it's something a lot of people disagree with and I understand that. Everyone …
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI started showing signed of major depression and bipolar when I was in sixth grade. I always had friends but it became harder and harder for me to see them. I started not being able to leave my house and even now, it's hard to go anywhere without my mom. It's hard for me to wake up in the morning because I just don't have any motivation. I love talking to people but so many things are forcing me to live alone.
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- It helps a little bit but I still have a lot of depression.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- I used to hear voices at night and this trazodone has helped me so much. It works in about 10 minutes and I fall asleep soon after that
- Wellbutrin Considering
- It's hard to tell which ones are working, but sometimes it works and other times I feel like it doesn't
- Abilify Considering
- I take a lot of this medication and I think it also goes in waves. Sometimes it works really well and other times it doesn't.
- EMDR Working / Worked
- it's therapy where it's all about eye movements and trying to remember things in your past that your brain can't remember. The eye movements help rearrange the way you think to try to remember things thast your brain has tried to forget because something could have been really traumatic.
Close Phobia
Type: Social PhobiaI have social phobia. It never used to be this way. I always had tons of friends and never ha a problem with talking to people. As my depression has gotten worse, it's almost impossible for me to feel comfortable around other people. I'll always be talking to people but it's just hard to be myself without worrying about what they're thinking about me.
Treatments
- Acceptance Not Working
- I'm trying to accept that I have social phobia and accept the fact that this is just what I have to deal with and I just have to figure out different ways to deal with this problem.
Open Teen Sexuality
Type: Gay / Lesbian Issuesbi,lesbian,straight,i dont know yet.
Open Bipolar Disorder
My moods go up and down, up and down. I can never tell how my day is going to go and how many people I piss off during the day.I hate it and I just want my day to be consistent.
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- Celexa Working / Worked
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- Risperdal Working / Worked
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
By no means would I say I'm prude,but I do believe in waiting for the one you're going to marry to have sex with. I've seen so many of my friends have sex with guys their just going to break up with in a couple months. I don't know, maybe it will change but no one has proven to me that I should.
Open Self-Injury
I started cutting myself since seventh grade and I do that on and off.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- my therapist sucks
- Rubber Bands Working / Worked
- Squeezing Ice Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Bisexuality
brianax3 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Eating Disorders
I started having problems with my weight after i started gaining weight because of my medicine. i pretty much throw up anything i eat and i just started taking laxitives.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
Open Schizophrenia
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