mrichards's Journal

Well, I am confused. I am going through so much. I would have never expected this from the man I married - I mean NEVER. The good Catholic boy, with the good Catholic family. HA! This is one roller coaster ride that I just can't wait to get off. I can't get myself to stop trying to talk to him, but why? Even after I found out that he cheated on me - formed a relationship with another woman instead of being with his wife and kids - I offered him a option to work on it but he would have to be around and only go out with me and let me see his phone bills and have access to his e-mail. Yep, it would be HELL for a long time, but isn't our family worth it? Apparently not to him. I am crushed, devestated, and so angry....so angry. The other woman was telling him to stay with me, while having intercourse with him repeatedly and talking to him on the phone for hours. Yeah, she is a real sweetheart. Whatever. I just need help to get through this. I feel like I have died, but I here I am still.