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Dissapointment Mood

Monday, April 14, 2008 | A Sad story

Somehow, when my period is late I always get my hopes up. As of today it is 11 days late. I had almost gotten up the hope to take a second test. Well a few minutes ago I went to the bathroom and lo and behold, the first sign of starting was there.

I'm sad, because I wanted so much to be pregnant. I feel jealous because two of my friends are now pregnant, one just found out this week. Two more have tiny babies. Two more are waiting until next year before they try, and one already has a two year old.

I understand that I have a wonderful seven year old son, and a cute baby brother to care for. Part of me says I should just be thankful for what I have, and give up on ever having a child. I should accept the fact that I am barren now and live with it. But the doctor says I can have more children. I want one very badly. I just wish that I could have a baby with my husband.

I think it is finally time to accept the fact that God does not want me to have another child right now, and deal with it. I will have to lean on Him and on my husband, because I am so overcome emotionally right now.

Well, if I have my period now, then maybe I can start the process over. TTFN.

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I pray that you will have your second child and if your this late you just might be..
With my second child. I bleed just a little bit and I new it wasnt normanl because of the color So I went to the doctor and I was 4 weeks pregnant.. So there is still hope write me and tell me what happens

clemons2008
when the time is right, Christ will bless you with a child. You can't keep yourself stressed about it or be to focused in getting pregnant... Have faith in Christ, believe me, you will be blessed. I will keep you in my prayers.

taino69
How are things going for you this month? I havn't heard from you just checkin in! On your progress

cwashburn