ladybuglover369's Journal

Everthing changes, and everything stays the same. Right now I am dealing with the issue of a possible move to another state. I don't know if I can do it. It would be the right thing to do financially speaking, but I'm afraid. I don't know if I would be able to make new friends and I don't wnat to lose touch with the ones I have. I don't want to leave my church, but it may be what I'm being called to do.

I am so worried about everything. My husband is getting occasional work now. I am working and doing assorted side temp jobs. I am worried about the way things are going and I want to do better.

I'm feeling better lately even though I'm worried. I am having an easier time with smoking. I've gotten alot done on the website and I just feel like things are looking up. I'm thinking of going on birth control for a year and seeing what happens at the end of it. There is a possibility of getting pregnant at the end. Besides I don't want to move during a pregnancy. It would leave too much to be done by my dad and Steve, and neither one of them is very good at packing. I hate to say it, but they would probably mess things up.

I want to get something for mother's day this year, but I somehow doubt that it will happen. I really wish that my husband were less forgetful.

Anyway, that's about all I have to say right now. TTYL.