Jay4's Journal

six weeks and counting Mood

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Well....still no symptoms, although I've done nothing but eat for about two weeks. I think this might be down to nerves rather than being pg!!!!! I had to buy some new work tops as I am really uncomfortable with my weight gain. I bought two maternity ones that don't look like smocks. It means I can wear them even if things don't go the way we want .

I just can't bear another week of a strangled waist!!!!

No news from the hospital yet, which isn't stressing me out (surprisingly). I suppose the more advance notice I have of my first u/s, the longer I would have to worry and I'm doing more than enough of that as it is.

I went about half a day yesterday where I actually forgot I was pg and it was good to feel normal for a while. It always creeps in eventually though and I just wish I felt differently. I genuinely thought that getting pg again would make everything better but I am just so convinced that the baby has already gone and I am oblivious.

I had a terrible bleeding dream last night. It may sound awful but I almost wish it would just happen now (if it's going to). I don't think I could face finding out at the hos again. Seeing the screen look like white noise is all I can see in my head from the 1st time.

Believe it or not, I am having a good day today. I just needed to get my thoughts into my journal and now I can get on with the rest of the day.

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keep the baby past 8weeks

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I feel for you. I am in the same boat. I also thought getting preg again would make it all better. I don't even think about telling people because I am so sure it won't last. Hugs. Each week that passes with nothing happening is like getting good news.

sadbelly
nerves. that's normal. I'm glad you're dealing with weight gain, not the bad stuff. I'm hanging in there with you. Do you think after 8 weeks you'll be able to relax more?

Cjharder
Hang in there Clare! Everything will be alright and it is natural to feel this way but you still need to replace your negative thoughts with positives. Tell yourself that I am pregnant and my baby is going to fine. Say it over and over again until you start to believe it. Negative thoughts only make things worse so pull your hair or do whatever it takes to stop yourself from doing it. God does not want us to worry! He wants you to celebrate the gift of life you have inside of you. Take care!

anxietyfree
Hey girl I got my bfp a couple of days ago and I have no symtoms and that kinda worries me I go see my RE tomorrow so we'll see if this baby will stay with me. hope you are doing good ~Hugs~

Nikkiempty
when do u go for ur first u/s

Nikkiempty
I can understand why you are worried, but hang in there. It's still early. Lots of women don't develop any symptoms in the first few weeks of pregnancy. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed and praying for you!

egs827
clare..i totally understand what you are going through..be well.

wishing43