Journal Entry for August 17, 2008
August 17, 2008 7:05pm
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About Me
a mummy to 3 kids and married to a soldier..at the moment im stuck in my head. my past: when i was a baby my dad use to beat me and my mum although thankfully i dont remember myself being hit as i was under 3. eventually he broke my mum and she was admitted into the local phychiatric hospital. my dad left as he was threatened by my grandad and uncle after battering her so bad. from that moment things got even worse, my family couldnt be bothered to help my mum out with me and my bro so we got dumped with neighbours. well once my mum was released things were bad. my mum turned to alcohol, she mentally and physcially abused us. at the age of 7/8 i remember her pretending to be satan and telling us that little evil people were running around the ceilings....ud be here all week reading if i told u about my whole childhood but basic facts are i havent had a childhood, although i love my mum to bits (shes done 6 months rehab and is so much better) after having my 2nd child i developed pueperal phychosis and i havent been the same since...i need help, i need to break out of my bubble...i selfharm and im always feeling like i have no purpose here (yes i know i have kids) im sick of being depressed
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id love to have a life
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August 17
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stuckinmydarkbubble wrote a journal entry updating their lose weight goal 7:05pm
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an event from my past
March 12, 2008 12:36pm
ive always loved my mum no matter what shit she put me through, even tho it seems she liked the drink more than me.....a couple of years back i …
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March 10, 2008 6:19am
well rung the orthopedic dep and explained to them there was no way i could travel the 40 miles to see them at 10.30 this morning...im hoping that …
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well well
March 9, 2008 6:10pm
well had a lay in today,felt pretty good...also i managed to drive down the road for a bit (usually go to a derilict site and go round in cicles …
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you can do it....this is one of my problem too right now. Tho me I already know how to manuever but not so alert much yet in the road I guess bec. of my anxiety/panic attack and insomnia. But you can do it...go go go.. :-)
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Hey you. Big hugs back. Dont come on here as much now either. Hope you are well hun xx
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Hi, hope your feeling ok, sending you a hug xx karen
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionlost childhood due to alcoholic mother,mental and physical abuse also sexual assault by others now has lead to suffering severe depression after the birth of my 2nd child in march 05....getting worse..selfharmer since the age of around 11...now suicide thoughts all the time...attempted suicide numerous occasions
Treatments
Close Military Families
hubby is in the army and i find it hard to make friends...have no family near even if i did they cant be trusted
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
mum was an alcoholic throughout my whole childhood.ive been mentally and physically abused by her although ill never stop loving my mum. i had to grow up fast and look after her the best i could. mum would pretend to be the devil and scare and hit me and my brother. would see my mum beaten up by the local youth as she was so drunk,my mum has set herself alight in the bk of a police van,woken me up with her wrists pumping out blood...too much stuff to recall
Treatments
- Talking Not Working
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
god i hate that i have to have everything in a certain way or something bad will happen...i cant even read a book and miss one word, i have to go bk to it....i cant stand it taking over my life
Treatments
- Seroquel Not Working
Open Families & Friends Of Addicts
mother was an alcoholic throughout my whole childhood and beyond....ive had no childhood
Open Self-Injury
selfharmer due to alcoholic mother,suffered mental and physical abuse, sexual assault by numerous people...I HATE MYSELF
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Friendmy best friend died dec 18th 2000. she had hereditary hep c which destroyed her liver. she had a transplant but with no support from her family (her mother died 13 months b4 to hep b) and not wanting to live without her mum nicola was placed in an induced coma... i went to see her in hospital the night b4 she died, she looked peaceful although blood was gathering at her mouth...my best frind, my world,my little sis nicola died a few hours later. she really was the life n soul of the party.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful
Open Rape
i had being seeing a lad for around a week,txtn, we had met at a nightclub and swapped numbers. went to the fair with my daughter and had a really good time, we hadnt done anything more than kissed. invited him round one evening to watch a film, i was standing up for some reason and he come up to me and pushed me on the sofa, i tried to get up but he was on top of me, i couldnt scream out as my daughter was asleep at the time,. he proceeded to do what he needed whilst i told him to stop
Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
i have 3 children, one is 9 then my 2nd is 3 on the 17th of march and my son is 19 months
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