Journal Entry for July 24, 2008
July 24, 2008 10:49am
Mom is almost gone she can't talk doesn't open her eyesthey called me at 8 this morning and said shes worse.I wish you all could have …
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About Me
First i am gammie to Serena 5 , Tyler 3, And Max will be born the first week of august because they will induce labor because Max is going to weigh alot they don't think she can do it natural but she wants to try.Secondly i am a caregiver to my 83 yo rx addict Mom its sad but now she is slowly shutting down.I'm trying to get through the suicide of my ex 7 months ago.And i am a survivor so i fight for what i believe in.But i have lost myself and am trying to find the old me.
Interests
I love life and wish i had lived it the right way before.I love my cat whose real name is Caleigh thats where i got Kalei from no its not my real name.I love reading true crime.I hate liars, i will not lie to you except two things you never ask a lady.I'm a city girl but would perfer to live out in the country away from everyone so i could live anyway i want.My depression usually has its hands around my neck i pretend to be strong but i'm not the masks we all were someday hopefully will come down and there will be a smile on our faces.I love my true friends on here. Love Kalei
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Recent Activity
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kalei gave bipolarfolse a Hug 12:57am
i don't have a chat button if you still want to talk kalei…
Yesterday
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kalei gave lonelykasey a Hug 9:19pm
sure baby…
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kalei commented on renwood’s journal entry A small hello 9:16pm
Hi Mom i love you i have missed you so much and right now i wish i could feel your arms around me.My…
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kalei gave lonelykasey a Hug 9:06pm
hugs to you i love you kalei…
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kalei gave Kath30Miller a Hug 4:34pm
you are so wonderful with Mom dying i feel abandoned kath i love you and have the most respect for you…
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Journal Entry for July 22, 2008
July 22, 2008 10:24pm
my Mom had a stroke last night and now is in hospice.I …
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help me please or just listen
July 21, 2008 11:02pm
I write in red because my heart is bleeding.My Mom is dying,today is totally different she's calling for God to take her …
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Hey Pam, I was thinkng about you last night and again this morning and wanted you to know.
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sorry bout your mom
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thanks and hugs hun if u hear about lovebirds tempd to sucide its not true its attenchen seaking so ya
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hey kalei can u send my mom a hug its my grampa's bday so she is reallying haveing a rought time hugsssssss luv ya hun
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love 2 u
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Support Groups
Close Caregivers
ok Sebbo here i am.i live with and take care of my 82 yo mom.she is in chronic pain and has a very addictive personality.pills pills pills if the doctors try to ween her off all hell breaks loose and i pay.She can be mean yet she is a fragile angel of God. She wants to die and i can't accept that i still feel like a child and i need her.but 2 days ago i realized i wouldn't want her life there is no qualityi went into her room and told her its ok if she wants to die i understand
Close Schizophrenia
my name is Kalei my brother is paranoid schizophrenic would like to understand this better and realize what he goes through.he has nothing to do with family or his kids i'm willing to talk with anyone
Open Amputees
i am not an amputee i have a dear friend who is
Open Alcoholism
i was an alcoholic from 17 until 41 drank everyday blackouts and fights you name it i did it.Drugs if i was drunk enough i stopped 15 years ago no aa no 12 steps.Cold turkey.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- i had to quit to save my kids and our relationship
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
I am the caregiver of my mom she is 82 and a drug addict of prescription drugs.i found out today that everytime i leave shes stealing my ativan and percocets.i was going crazy i couldn't figure where my meds were going.and i was in chronic pain thanks to her.i no longer know her and am very close to feeling hate help please
Open Heart Attack
had a heart attack in2001 i think i'm bad at dates had a stent put in.quit smoking
Treatments
Open Bipolar Disorder
have suffered depression for 30 years .med after med nothing helps sometimes i use to stop them and get manic it felt good but now the end result is too bad
Treatments
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionsuffered depression since i was 16
Treatments
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
Open Fibromyalgia
trying to get someone to say what i have they think fibromyalgia no enery a spot below shoulder blade is killing me i were lidoderm patches but doesn't help does anyone get pain there
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- Duragesic Patch Working / Worked
- headache blurred vision vomitting
- Effexor Working / Worked
- kinda works
- Oxycodone Somewhat Helpful
- really doesn't help
Open Hodgkin's Lymphoma
i'm here because i have 3 friends with this illness
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
my ex just killed himself the 24th of Oct.They couldn't even identify the body.This is my second time my Dad did the same thing.I'm so afraid of dying now because my heart went into defibulation and they asked me to sign a living will i said no god someone help me to understand
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- nothing is working
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/SpouseMy ex just killed himself 7 months ago.What he did decapitated him so we never got to see him again i'm living in a false world pretending he's off fishing Kalei
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- crying works but doesn't bring them back
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- did it all it helped for a minute but didn't change the facts
- Music Working / Worked
- i listen to alot of songs about love and leaving
- Pets Working / Worked
- without my cat i'd be worse shes my love now her name is Caleigh but i will lose her to she has liver disease
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Couldn't take a step forward without God holding my hand
- Remembering Working / Worked
- always remembering
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- not really
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- family and friends of suicide has saved me
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