sweetpotato's Journal

wow how time goes by. well its the fourth of July . My kids are with my abuser, their father. Not sure how i feel about that. My sister who never talked to me because i was with my abuser of a husband has decided to be my best friend now that i left him. That hurts, she was not there when it was the hardest but now that i have gotten out, done the hard stuff all by my self, now she wants to be a support to me. When i allow my self to feel, that hurts a lot and brings the flash backs with it. I am getting stronger but still have moments of weakness and hurt. At least the flashbacks don't put me to the floor or the closet any more. I gain courage most the time to go on. I still tihnk the world is a bad place and that people will only hurt you when you give them the oppertunity. but, I am starting to see some good, some hope, some glimmer of humanity in some, few people. Today I celibrate my Independance from an abusive and manipulative and hurtful man, my husband. Will i ever be free of the pain and memories?