Angelicia121's Journal

OK, I just got out of my bath and was thinking a lot about myself and need to share.  I was sober for 3 wonderful years and loved every moment.  I learned a lot about myself, got divorced and went back to school.  All very good.  Then I decided to try the drinking thing again, and did it for 6 months.  It didn't go too bad, except for my last episode that brought me back to sobriety...for now!!!  I say, 'for now', because deep down inside I have plans on drinking in celebration for 'OUR' 50th birthday.  I say 'OUR', because my dear old friends that I have been drinking with since I was 16 are all turning 50 this year, and we have plans for a great big bash on October 18th.  Yep, the alcoholic mind is already planning on this celebration.  That's what an alcoholic mind does that is different then the normal brain...we plan ahead for that drink.  And in talking about it, it helps me to see how stupid this is.  So I need to share.  I am going to bed and will share more later...good night!