dj2431's Journal

Hi all. I am pretty new to this. I am a 29 year old female and I reside in NY. For the past 7 years, I been feeling depressed. I have been on all sorts of medication, and nothing seems to have helped. My last psychiatrist pu tme on 100 mg of Zoloft and 100mg of Trazodone to sleep at night. I also take Ambien 10 mg to sleep at night. I los my job over a year ago and I have not been able to get a good job b/c of the depression. I start off doing very good and then things go sour. My boyfriend of 7 months broke up with me on my brithday in January. He saw my script bottle for Zoloft and told me I was crazy. I have no insurance and cannot afford to pay to see a doc for therapy. My primary care did me a favor and renewed my script for meds.

I came across your forum and felt that mayble talking to others in a similar situation would be able to helpme best. My parents wish I would snapout of it. My family doesn't really want to associate with me anymor eb/c of the depression. My 2 reasons for writing have to do with meeting others who share the same circumstances as me. In addition, I had to stop taking the Ambien b/c I feel as if it makes me more emotional and do crazy things. My memory has suffered b/c of the Ambien. When I do stop taking it, I can't sleep for 5 days on end. I tried to apply for SSDisability and Medicaid but was turned down b/c I was told that I would have to be suicidal, or commited to a hopsital to receive benefits. I am just looking for help until I can get back on my feet. Will things ever get better?

If anyone can help me through this, I would appreciate it. Best of luck to all in this forum and thanks for your courahe on speaking out on this disease/illness, which is nothing to be ashamed of! Any advice, hugs would be greatly appreciated!