Heckster’s Profile

About Me

After 27 years of marriage, I discovered my spouse was a closet gay like former Gov. McGreevey, Sen.Craig and Foley. What has been difficult is the fact he remains in denial due still to public discrimination. He has made himself the victim and has the children's sympathies. I am the outcast for initiating the divorce to achieve a true "authentic" relationship one day with somebody. I am angry and disappointed in my children's alienation of me and it depresses me terribly on a daily basis. I didn't have a choice , I am intitled to a true relationship after years of physical rejection and emotional abuse/manipulation. Love does not produce these things, a small minded sick mentality does. I'm updating this profile because..........I'm going home to NJ. The only way to make things right is comfront the demons and then they go away. FEAR is like a Hologram..FACE IT and it disappears. I'm reading two good books and just got a third. Rather than absorb the negativity I'm reading to re-invent myself and my own self destructive attitude. Guess what I'm a good person and if you don't like it......go get an ice cream! I'm coming HOME!

Interests

I moved to another state to start over. I have accomplished involving myself in two volunteer programs to help network to find a job. I joined a gym and workout and walk everyday. I also take 2 doberman's I'm in charge of to the State Park everyday across the road. It's animal friendly and they run with other animals and chase balls and sticks and run thru the creek with dogs. It's an amazing theraputic walk each day. I'm hunting for a job which is a disappointing aspect right now. No bites or interviews. I am making some friends, extremely friendly here in COLORADO. People take the time nomatter where to say hello to a stranger or friend. There is abundant common curtesy and politeness which astounds me. There is no cursing. I went snowshoeing this winter asd just got an invite to try hiking. I'm looking for a bike to go biking w/ my longtime g/f who I grew up with and lives here in CO. Going to volunteer at a Dog shelter in Denver. An unbelievable facility that looks like a campus for unwanted animals. They have over 600 volunteers to get these animals adopted. I want to go fishing in a creek or lake this summer. I want a job so I support myself. I want to find a man who will love and appreciate all of incredible attributes that were so used and abused by my Ex GH.