Journal Entry for July 7, 2008
July 7, 2008 6:27am
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willowhawkCASSIDY
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About Me
I am just a SINGLE man still searching for his soul, who I really am inside and what I can offer to others. I am still trying to find myself and also find someone to be involved in my life as well. There are so many ambitions that I have floating around in my mind to complete. But I still need to find who I am before I can pursue them.
Interests
Business, music, customer relations, dabbling around on my portable grand, animals, and various pagan arts and lifestyles.
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Recent Activity
Monday
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willowhawkCASSIDY changed their mood to OK 6:04pm
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willowhawkCASSIDY and astrowarrior are now friends 5:50pm
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willowhawkCASSIDY wrote a journal entry updating their Bi-Polar issues goal 6:27am
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willowhawkCASSIDY wrote a journal entry updating their Be better after attempt. goal 6:24am
I am feeling horribly manic today, I have shut everyone out of my life for the day, I hope that is all…
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willowhawkCASSIDY changed their mood to Horrible 6:21am
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willowhawkCASSIDY and kyliejack are now friends 6:15am
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willowhawkCASSIDY and Muffins4You are now friends 3:34am
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willowhawkCASSIDY gave sammy39 a Hug 2:41am
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AHHH, Mania and hell
July 7, 2008 6:24am
I am feeling horribly manic today, I have shut everyone out of my life for the day, I hope that is all it takes (one day), but the mania has not came …
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My new hair...
July 1, 2008 6:48pm
You know I shaved my head because I was manic and wanting a change. But after doing this I am realizing that my attitude is changing for the …
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Hugbook
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I love you. I'm here for you. You hang in there. Relax and take your peace time. Everyone needs to withdrawl once in a while.
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i KNOW YOU CAN DO IT
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Hello from Orlando FL, hope all is well with you, have a great week and take care, Stephan
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so how r u going today then have u had a good wkend xxxxxxxxxx
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how r u?? new hair style looks great xxxx
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
I had a VERY serious suicide attempt. (Though I am OVER IT now, thankfully) I overdosed with 8,000 mgs. of Benedryl, 3,000 of Lithium, and 1,000 of Cymbalta. I was in my apartment for 10 hours before the EMT's were notified. I then spent the next 2 weeks between cardiac ICU and normal ICU units. After that I was transfered to the psych unit for another 5 days. I remember only the last 2 days due to absorbing 4,000 mgs. of the Benedryl into my system. Which is 4 x's the lethal dose.
Treatments
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
Well, while I was growing up with my parents. My mother past away when I was 7 due to a car accident. After this my father began abandoning my sister and I and having us go to our martial arts instructors house to stay with him. Months and months later he came back. But he started to be physically abusive mainly to my sister, but towards myself as well. My sis did everything, not have the abuse land on me but sometimes it did anyways. And when she moved out, more then ever came my way.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Not Working
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Leave Too Soon to Tell
- I am moving to CA on July 31st.
- Music Working / Worked
- Music has changed how I think about abuse, the world, and the people in it. It has given me a way to releasae my thoughts and feeling to people without them knowing so.
- Talking Not Working
Open Healthy Relationships
I know that I really do not belong in this group but there are reason for joining. I have had my fair share of heartbreak and humiliation from the people that I have been with. I am searching to find a way to have my relationships work out how I want them to "Everlastingly".
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- I tried to do this in the past but the distance between us grew to far.
- Talking Not Working
- I had discussions with my x's but nothing seem to help.
Open Healthy Sex
I have always been in longer relationships and now I have been single for over 2 years (working on myself). I am now starting to do the dating thing and I am trying to always practice safer sex. As well as healthy too.
Open Impotence & Erectile Dysfunction
When I first searched out assistance with my mental disorders I found myself going to Kiaser as that is where my employment insurance was through. They started prescribing all of these drugs (nerve blockers, serotonin inhibitors, and antispsychotics). By doing so they ALL had an affect on my reproductive organ (can't think of a better way to say it). Now I have a difficult time keeping the erection for more then an hour and sometimes reaching the climax in its self.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
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