is feeling Good
Have a rash on my face and under my eyes are swollen. Last day on here for awhile.
Recently: 34 hugs given, 28 journal comments more …
I have been married to a wonderful man for 10 years. of course we have had our ups and downs through this 10 years. I have went through a lot during our marriage. My childhood memories that I blocked out has come back to haunt me after giving birth to a beautiful baby boy back in 2000. I had trouble with taking care of him. A family member took him in for us. I was real depressed and confused about my childhood. I was having terrible nightmares and flashbacks. I didn't know how to control or if I could stop them. Sadly I turned to suicide attempts. I started to get better in 2001. Then in 2002 I gave birth to our 2st son. We wanted to raise him but was scared do to the things that I was told and made to believe. So my family member got him to. They was adopted by my family member back in Feb of 2003. I have been grateful that we have been able to see them raised up. Sad that we have been unable to raise them our self. In August of 2007 we got bad news about what my family members husband did. I was doing good up until this point. At this point I was off of my meds for over 5 years and doing well. Then after the news we got I try to kill myself again. Thankful it did not work and I was truly able to get the help that I did. I am now doing much better but I am still dealing with some issues. If you would like to know more about me than please feel free to read my journals or ask me.
I like to read all kinds of books. I like to cook and I am pretty good at it. I am now learning healthier ways to cook food. I love dolphins and I wish to swim with them someday. I like horses but I haven't been able to be around them to much in my life. I love to swim and I do that as much as I can. I also like to go out on four wheelers and go mudslinging.
kb1979 gave auntshawn a Hug 7:28pm
Thanks so much . I will miss you 2. Yes I will get back as soon as I can . HUGS and Kisses !…
kb1979 gave scurrie a Hug 5:07pm
Thanks for the one line journal.…
kb1979 commented on scurrie’s journal entry Update 5:06pm
Yes it's normal. Lol One line.…
kb1979 gave scurrie a Celebration 5:05pm
Yeah about time !…
kb1979 gave SarahLynn a Hug 1:52pm
I'm doing ok thank. No haven't moved yet. We will be moving tomorrow . I'm sorry that you are crying.…
August 29, 2008 11:44am
Well guys today is going to be the last day on here for awhile. We are moving and won't have Internet for awhile. I will miss you guys. …
Hope your puffiness goes away soon! BE SAFE!!! WIll miss you! Hurry back! :o) ))))))HUGS((((((
awww your kids are cute like i said b4 you will get them back! You are a very good person and God sees that in you!
I updated my journal
How r u doing today? Im just crying n being a baby n watching tv. Have u moved in yet?
Hey honey, yeah it was me the other day. I can't believe she would do that to me! I have sorted it all out and she won't be able to get into any of my things now. I went to the docs and they did a blood test, she says I have miscalculated the days?! I'll find out in a couple of days. How is everything with you? x x x
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I have had depression for awhile. I recently got the help that I needed. I am not over it but I am healing.
I am overweight and I tried of it. I am now doing something about it. I am eating right and exercising . I am also using Alli. I have not always been big . I have also been underweight. I have used my weight to try to hide from people that have hurt me.
I feel like this most of the time. I try to relax but most things don't work.
As a child I had many people molest me. One of my older brothers . My father never touched me but he got money to let men touch me and my sisters. Also to rape us. So I guess you would call it forced prostitution. When we did get out of that home we got molested in foster care. I was also raped as a teen by by my boyfriend.
I was in foster care at 5 . I was put into Foster care because of physical , emotional and sexually abuse and neglect. My parents got me back. I went back to Foster care. I was adopted at the age of 9 . I blocked out what happened to me. The memories returned after a traumatic childbirth. am also an birth mother. I hate myself.
