DeidreRenee's Journal

I was doing ok until my H came home from work. He was in a bad mood because there wasn't a parking spot for him to park the car in. We live in a apartment complex and theres one reserved parking space for each apartment and if you want another park you have to pay $50 a month extra for a garage that you can only keep your car in. You cant store anything in the garage but the car. Plus theres five vistor parking spots, two prospective tenant parks and one employee parking spot. So those of us who have more then one car play musical parking spots all the time. If you get home to late your sol. Its crazy. You have to make your schdule around when you think you can get in to a parking spot. The management doesn't care. We have asked for a garage but they say theres none open at this time. She said she would put us on the list for a garage. Then later when my H went to find out where we were on the list, we found out that theres no list. The only list she had was in her head and if you got to her when there was a garage open then you got it. Its crazy. I cant stand living in this place. Its driving me crazy.

My H came upstairs after he parked in front of the stairwell we live in. He snapped at me because I hadn't moved the truck because a park hadn't come open. I asked him, "what was I suppose to do, stand down stairs all day until someone decided to move or just find a cars owner and threaten there life if they didn't move there car? He looked at me and smiled and said "yeah". He said, I know, IM being stupid. I said yep.

He then started telling me about work and the big things he got, that a boys on. He was pleased with himself. I just smiled. I told him that all thats great but I need a job. He said that some woman is suppose to be leaveing forsure and he told the big boss people that I need and want the job. IM crossing my fingers and toes.

After all the possible good news. I looked down and I saw my H back pack he takes to school. Then I looked at the clock and it was only 4pm. I asked him what he was doing? He said Im going to school early so I can get some home work done thats due tomorrow. He said, if I stay home I know I wont do it. He normally leaves for school at 530pm. So many things went through my head. 

I thought he was going to meet the OW. Or he was going to meet a New OW. Just so many things. Its hard to not think things like that. Now IM in a bad mood. I hate when this happens. I have been in a not so good mood all day and now it has turned to bad.

How do I stop this from happening? How do I change my way of thinking?