blackpig69's Journal

Looking outside my window this morning,seeing the blanket of snow,I decided today was going to be a good day,I got onto the computer and chatted to my good friend,we talk,we laugh we even sometimes cry,but I know she cares,and I hope she knows how much I care about her,so we said our goodbyes,I went off to have a nice hot relaxing bath,lovely start to the day.

I walked briskly in the snow to my parents,only a few streets away,the moment I walked through the door I could sense an attmosphere,this wasn't going to be a fun Visit.

My dad decided to lecture me,but the thing is with every word he said all I could think about was the cutting he was forcing into my mind,2 of my friends are seriously ill,one has tried to kill herself again this morning,her parents trying to track me down had desperatly phoned my parents to pass on a message,my dad had hurled abuse at the poor woman down the phone,He wants me to stay away from in his words (crazy people)Doesn't he see,I'm one of those crazy people,my other friend was rushed into hospital last night,they are desperatly trying to save her arm,her cutting has gone too deep again,she lost the use in that arm months ago,but now it looks like they are going to have to remove it.My dad knows about my Self Harming,although he thinks its a dirty little secret from my past,he told me about my second friend because he thought I should know how stupid I'd been in the past.

Well thanks Dad,thanks for carring,thanks for understanding,thanks for tipping me over the edge.