isolda’s Profile

Close Physical & Emotional Abuse

I am divorced. I now realize I've been in many emotional and verbal abusive relationships: family, "friends" and lovers. I find relationships hurting and I isolate even more. I want to know what I repeatedly do wrong. I am sad and angry. I haven't got over it. I would like to. I need emotional support. Thank you.

Treatments

Art Somewhat Helpful

Keeping a journal where I write everything I feel and all the things I would never tell anyone, it's been useful and good for my mind and my soul. It's been insightful. I also act in plays and films once in a while and it has been like a dream come true, so it has helped me.

Divorce Working / Worked

I handle it the best I could: being very nice and getting over it. I wish I had told him all I thought of him and how hurtful he was, instead I took the blame and that was the only way he left me alone. A heavy weight was taken off my shoulders, but I feel now (10 years later!) that I should've been more assertive and agressive and defensive.

Leave Working / Worked

Yes, it's been my number one technique, specially when talking and communicating have been useless and the abuser takes what you've said and uses it against you. But again, I would rather be more assertive and stand my ground.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

I took three year therapy and it helped me see certaing issues about my self and relationship to others (it was from 96 to 99) but now i realize I'm still angry - even angrier than before because then I hadn't realized i guess all the pain and hurt I was going through and I feel so guilty and now I see that how I let them hurt me and that It wasn't my fault they were abusive. And I feel helpless to forgive and forget and I am scared because my life hasn't really turned out to be how I expected.

Talking Somewhat Helpful

Yes, it has been helpful to stop being ashamed and ventilate what has happened to me in certain relationships and tell how I feel. But it hasn't been enough and besides people can listen but I don't want to overwhelm anybody with my problems.

Close Fitness Goals
Type: Other

I have always had fat thighs and i hate it! I am in my weight, i even look quite thin, but it seems all fat goes to that part of my body. I do stationary bike and walks, they help, but the only way it seems to get the fat out of my thighs is by eating very little.