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Journal Entry for March 7, 2008 Mood

Friday, March 7, 2008

I pick terminal for the font because it seems kind of appropriate today has been a weird day for me I have felt better but and its a big one I am very sensitive and very self contious that seems to be getting worse my self pity my emotions are so out of control is all I can think about lately is myself and I feel very selfish for it but I really need to think of my self because if I don't I know damn well nobody I mean nobody will my husband drives truck and is gone all week long my kids all rely on me for anything they are little my oldest is 11 my mother thinks its hormones and does not support me my best and only friend is avoiding me probabley don't want to talk about my feelings. I have my self and oh my god am I even lucky to still be alive even because you all know I have wanted to take my life wow I really don't know how I do it! I really think that most of the time death is the best alternative to any thing else I think the only things on the earth that can tell if I am having problems or how I feel unless I tell them are my pets and they are so sweet they are truely my best friends god do I have bipolar or what?

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bipolar is a possibility

angelsdogs
I am bipolar and I think like you quite often. Anytime you need a friend or someone to talk to I am here. Literlly. I'm disabled and here most 24 hours a day. Being bipolar I don't sleep much so anytime. Really. and I love to listen almost as much as I love to talk. I may not make sense all the time but I'm paretty smart. (at least I think so)

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