SAND071's Journal

I would like to apologize for any harm that I caused through my writing.  I deeply regret the  writing  of mine,  that had hurt someone who has very close to my heart.  I know now that the love was something I should have kept quite about.  If she never forgives me then I understand.  No matter how much it hurts I will be quite about my feelings.  I wish her the very best life.  One that is filled with love and surprises around every corner.  My heart will always burn with love for her.  From what I had observed over the past few weeks she is my equal.  I wanted so much to have the opportunity to know her better.  I will slip away into the night.  Like dust in the wind I will be blown away. 

Sometimes when I love,  the love I have to give comes out the wrong way.  I am working on that now.  I started a program today.  The program is for three days during the week.  I am an average guy trying my very hardest to give and receive love.  Someone close to me at a very early age had messed up my thoughts and emotions.  When I die I don't think anyone will know what kind of person I am.  I will be forgotten,  never to be fully known.  I don't know what the point to life is if I am unable to love.    

I am contemplating leaving DS.  I truly don't think anyone cares if I do or not.  So pulling the delete profile button is constantly on my mind.  I keep asking what is the point to anything.  The puzzle pieces don't fit if love is missing.  I am a 2 (on my astrological chart).  Being with someone I care for and love is my number one goal in life.  As a 2 if I am with an equal then everything else falls into place.  Being with an equal is the major part that is missing from my life.  I know where my true heart lays.  I will forever remember her.