i'm a bad girl
June 12, 2008 4:34pm
I did something I shouldn't have late last night. I've had a really tough time coping and have been angry, sad and tired all of the time. …
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I'm a blue collar mom of 5, 3 bio & 2 step; ages 22, 19, 19, 17, 14. Was rollin' along, lovin' life....new house, two kids in college, new car, happy marriage (I thought); then Happy Valentine's Day "08! She calls, he lies for a while and my world shatters.
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Startin' to get used to this roller coaster.
June 5, 2008 12:03pm
I think I'll be OK. Some days I'm not so sure, but those days are coming farter apart.
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feeling crazy
May 13, 2008 9:11pm
I went off the antidepressants and things have successfully gone downhill from there. I feel like I'm losing it...I don't know if I can cope …
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FRUSTRATION!!
April 16, 2008 8:15pm
I'm angry and frustrated that I can't meet the OW. I feel like I really need to meet her and see what she looks like. She has continued to …
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i feel for you as i am going through the same thing. can't seem to get myself out of the hole. everyday is a struggle. hope there will be better days ahead for us.
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Hang in there, vent all you need to. I don't sleep either. My husband is a teen porn addict and he brags about his prostitutes. He just returned from his dream vacation in Thailand where he sometimes had 3 teens at a time.(he gives me the graphic details just to hurt me. You aren't alone. Alot of men are just very selfish and care for no one but themselves. It isn't you. Cindy
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You need time! I went back on my depression medication about 8 months BEFORE d-day (for different reasons), THANK GOD! After d-day I went on xanax as needed, then at 4 months I totally lost it, it was like d-day all over again! I had been stuffing all my emotions down to "get on with life" and they all came boiling up! I am now on Xanax XR, I never miss a dose, along with my Cymbalta, the one for depression. I know one day I'll be off the Xanax, maybe the Cymbalta too. But for now this is what I need to do for myself and my children. I was a mess, I couldn't get through a day without several anxiety attacks. I have a 13 year old daughter, who is now home schooled, and 3 other kids in their 20's. My 13yr old has Generalized Anxiety Disorder, I NEED to stay as even with my moods as possible, for me and for her. Don't beat yourself up about it! Medication isn't forever, but it can help get you through the hard times. Go see the psychiatrist, mine has helped me sooo much! The meds alone are not magic, the therapy is a big part of the healing. D-day was not that long ago for you, give yourself a break! Hugs to you!
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Close Infidelity
I've been happily married for 16 yrs. We have great kids, a new house, a new car. We were starting to look forward to just the two of us. Valentine's Day 08 ..he starts acting crazy over a phone call "from work"..won't listen to the voice mail..when I ask him "what's wrong...why not listen to it?" ..he says I'm accusing him of something. I'm floored because I haven't even thought of that..not him. Well, a couple of hours (and alot of lies) later he comes clean. He's been cheating for 2 years.
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- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Didn't like the counselor at all. After two sessions we haven't went back. I am considering my family phys. suggestion of seeing a psychiatrist.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Beginning to understand that forgiving is easier than forgetting. I know it is essential to moving forward and repairing our marriage.
Close Hypothyroidism
I was diagnosed, after about 8 wrong diagnoses, 13 years ago. My levels have been "stable" for around 9 years.
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- Synthroid Working / Worked
- I just think my doctor likes to be on the safe side a little too much. I don't think my level is where it should be, but he won't increase my dose. I am on 112mcg, two a day.
Open Migraine Headaches
I have been suffering from migraines for 35 years. I have tried a few medications but I usually just ride them out, unless they get really bad.
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Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionEver since the discovery of my husbands affair it has been a roller coaster of emotions. I just can't seem to shake the sadness and crying. Every time I think it's getting better something will bring right back down to depair.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Too Soon to Tell
- Just got the presciption today. Keeping my fingers crossed.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Marriage counseling was a bust. ..didn't like the couselor, but I'm thinking about individual counseling.
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