cheryllhillman's Journal

It all just sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

well today my friends i had my rings removed...one had to be cut off and the other came off....it felt so wierd...i thought i would be ok about it but i wasnt i cried and i was there with 2 friends....i was glad they were there with me...we did some shopping and bought a decorative silver ring to take its place...i wont say anything to him i will just see if he notices or says anything...though a couple of weeks ago he took off his...i just need to take steps at my own pace....im not sure how i really feel about it....but i know i really hate the whole stituation.....im not even sure who he is anymore....hes just like his dad but cant admit to anything....he gets pissed when i say like father like son....our own son has told me he will not be like his dad and will be a better husband....now what does that tell ya....its so sad!.........but iv hung in there for this long....its been like 2 months now thats hes left us...basturd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...cheryl!

another lonely day in my life..wow..i really hate all this..i want to feel nothing just like him..jerk..hes a different person any more..its so wierd..what has happened..its all wrong..i called him at work today and he was a goof and hasnt even called me back..he dosnt care how i feel..i wish i could get that through my head..someday i wiil i guess..maybe if i wasnt so lonely..it fucking sucks to be so lonely..it hurts..just makes u want to cry..i sure do enough of that..for awhile i thought i couldnt cry anymore..but oh yes i can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!