Chickapie's Journal

What A F***in Nightmare Week.

I could honestly just give up now... I feel ill today. My head is just boggled, I no longer know what to do... There is so many things that I want and need to change in my life but I cant... I dont know why but I cant. People keep telling me that I need to put myself first, and I dont seem to be able to... I dont know how to fix me so why bother trying? I just load myself up with other peoples problems, then I end up dragging myself lower and feeling even shitter.

Earlier this year I went to my doctor and told him I was no longer taking my anti depressants because I didnt feel they were working, and yes I feel good most the time now, I definately dont need them. Its just now, people know I am no longer classed as 'clinically depressed' I feel I can no longer talk to people like I used to. I cant just cry and be miserable when I want to, not without people saying "oh you'll be fine, shut up moaning" yes I know I will be fine, and yes I may be moaning, but I still need to talk.

My mind just shut down, So I'm going to bed. night night xx