AzureMoon's Journal

IS this just the Beginning Mood

Sunday, March 23, 2008 | A General Update story

Here I am, Trying to have hope. Easter is supposed to be a time of renewal , remembrance, and loving our fellow man. Yesterday, when we went to pick up treats for our cats and food for our Guinea pigs, I decided to go outside and get some fresh air because the sun was finally out and it was not as cold as it had been. I was singing to myself “Our God is an Awesome God” because I love to sing, and I love worship. I was minding my own business. This was not a busy place, in fact it was in a very small town and hardly anyone was there. I was sitting on a bench singing, and this couple comes outside. An older man and a woman almost 20 years younger than him holding a pocket poodle or whatever they call those cute little dogs....Well, anyways they came out and when I was singing the lady started quietly and then kept getting louder saying “How annoying, Annoying, Annoying.” I stopped for a split second to see what she was talking about. There was no one else around and as I started singing again, she started doing it again very loudly “Annoying” and kept repeating herself over and over again as she and this fella walked to the parking lot. He also had to add to the commentary, “Yeah, I know...Uh Huh.” I will be honest, I was pretty offended. I wanted to go confront this woman and man and had a lot of nasty sayings going through my head. I was not hurting anyone. I was not proselytizing. I was singing a song of Worship. I don't expect everyone to accept me or believe what I believe, but I have a right just like everyone else does to basic respect. I guess discrimination comes in many forms. Racism, disability related discrimination, discrimination regarding gender, weight related discrimination, and also the kind director and folks with mental illness. It disgusts me. It hurts me. Maybe things shouldn't hurt me so bad, but I have always been sensitive and always will. Why should I have to change just because some people in this world are mean, impatient and cruel. I will never understand. And people wonder why folks with emotional issues, have them to begin with. I am going to try my best to have a good Easter. I remember my Lord suffered and died on the cross. He suffered one time but in the greatest way for each and every one of us who accept him into our Lives and Hearts. If it were not for him, I would have ended my own life a long time ago. But, I won't because My God is the first and foremost important thing in my life. I fall behind, I screw up, I am imperfect and impatient. But, I also am loyal, loving, empathic, and caring, and I do not feel it is just for people to hurt each other just because they feel intimidated for absolutely no reason at all. So, I will look at this as a new beginning. I am frustrated and suffering as so many here and all over are. But, I am going to do my best not to be hateful, and to ask for forgiveness for myself and those around me who have done wrong. Peace, May peace rule this world through the King...Forever and Ever...Amen