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ChArch

Male, 19, Colorado Springs, CO

Member since February 20
is feeling Horrible

Wanting to die..

Status updated 7:55pm, July 16, 2008
About Me
I'm currently a student on leave from Brown University. I live at home now trying to get my life straight and maybe figure out what it is I really want to do. I love the theater and acting is my passion above all else. Otherwise, I'm a pretty simple straightforward kind of person. [=
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- Fail fail fail fail fail...
  
  July 16, 2008 7:59pm
  
  As always I've gone ahead and sucked at everything. I stopped using the site, didn't keep to any of my goals, and even started drinking …
- Also!
  
  March 2, 2008 5:38pm
  
  Yesterday, I spent a few hours hanging out with my ex (but also a very good friend of mine) and later, smoked hookah with some old high school …
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  March 2, 2008 5:37pm
  
  Finally got my old job at the park. It's not a tremendous $/h but it's helping build up a habit of waking up and going to sleep …
- Journal Entry for February 21, 2008
  
  February 21, 2008 7:41pm
  
  Didn't exercise at all yesterday... Fail.
- Journal Entry for February 20, 2008
  
  February 20, 2008 6:55pm
  
  Biked for 2 hours last night! 200 calories!
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- Close Depression - Teen
  I've been dealing with up and down depression since I was a freshman. I used to deal with it by cutting/burning and used to see school counselors when things got really unbearable. Recently, I took a leave from college after a failed suicide attempt and am currently in therapy.
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  Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
  
  Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
  
  Counseling has always been more of a temporary escape for me. It's nice talking to a neutral, objective person, but it really only helps me WHILE I'm talking. After I usually don't feel a whole lot better
  
  Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
  
  Having people that care always seems to cheer me up and give me motivation to do well with my life. But those people can't be there with me 24/7 and being alone for long periods of time seems to just break me down even more.
  
  Talking Somewhat Helpful
  
  Like counseling, talking with someone only seems to help for the few minutes while it happens.
  
  Physical Exercise Working / Worked
  
  Exercising til the only thing I can think about is how tired I am seems the be the only thing that takes my mind off the lonliness.
- Close Teen Sexuality
  Ever since the first time it's been fucking me over (so to speak...) with my relationships. And yet I somehow always want it. Ugh.
- Open Healthy Eating
  I need need NEED to start eating healthier. I know that KFC and Subway really don't cut it, but somehow fast food and crap is all I seem to eat.
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  Organic Diet Considering
  
  I really want to start eating pure organic and kick fast/junk food for good. I don't really know where to start though.
  
  Physical Exercise Working / Worked
  
  When I get up the motivation to do it, does wonders for how my body/mind feel.
- Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
  I've been cutting/burning to deal with my problems for four years. Doesn't get more simple than that.
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  Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
  
  Disuades me from doing it but doesn't take my mind off it.
  
  Talking Working / Worked
  
  Same effect as counseling.
- Open Teen Anxiety
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