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this is starting to get really really really old. im sick of it. im sick of being the odd ball of the family. im sick of the meds and the doctors appointments. im sick of my mom telling me that i cant do what i want to do. she told me today plans dont always stay plans for long. so i cant do what i want to do. i know what i want to do i have plans that i want to happen that will happen if i work hard enough for them so fuck her. yes i love my mom to death but her telling me that what i want to do isnt gonna happen is bullshit. i cant tell her im engaged. she would kill me. ugh i have so much going on right now and sometimes it just gets hard to deal with. i want to cry i want to cut i just ugh. i feel like im gonna break down any moment. i almost did just a min ago but i stoped myself. i just want to scream right now. to much fucking drama. everyone is telling me to calm down but i just cant. it might not be a big deal to everyone else but to me it is. they just dont understand. it seems that no one does. i dont want to deal with it anymore. im just sick of it. ugh i just dont know what to do anymore
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you have me. and you know what? we stick together. thats what we do. we have to. and anything will happen if you just put your mind to it. i promise! and i care. alot...and you are perfect the way you are. you care alot about the people that are around you. besides...its ok. it will always get better i promise. but truth is...the sun will only shine if you let it.
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