pdmrgm's Journal

I feel better today still don't feel like beeing here but I am so I don' feel like i did the other day.Not as bad. I went shopping the other day and got food i like it felt good in the store i felt like i was doing something good. like i was serving a purpose and wasn't creating a burdon on anyone by them having to buy my food.  when i got home I got yelled at for buying so much there went my buble i  went from manic of feeling great and good to depressed and not good. I get my feelings hurt so easy. i have to fight back. i am going to shoot for my disability now that is the only thing i have to go for, i hope i can get it is a hard life, i wish i could have my old life back when i was younger in my 20's maybe. then i felt good. i don't feel good any more i did when i was in the store the other day thow who knows if he quits hollering at me i may be happy again, he likes to control me but i can not make it without him. he just has to stop controlling me that will ease some of the stress.