Post-Op exam
February 28, 2008 1:36pm
It was horrible, as expected. I hadn't been back to that place since I was told about the baby. I sat waiting with expectant mothers …
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About Me
Divorced mother of two wonderful children, a fourteen year old boy and 11 year old daughter. After the divorce I moved back home to go back to school and start over. I'm currently a radiology student and dating a wonderful man that I love dearly, we were highschool friends so it's very nice. We recently lost two babies to miscarriage and I've been having a very difficult time with coping. I'm hoping that marriage and a healthy *full* pregnancy will occur as soon as I'm out of school. I'm ready for my real life to begin already. www.myspace.com/johnnysgirl1973 For some reason the 1973 isn't clickable in the link above, you'll have to type it in after the address or someone elses page will come up.
Interests
photography, writing, art
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Recent Activity
August 27
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leadler changed their mood to Bad 3:15pm
August 19
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leadler replied to Kellyat’s discussion post Has Anyone Ever Gotten Over It in the Infidelity support group 5:52pm
I found out about the cheating on my own, I doubt he would have ever owned up to it. This leads me to…
January 1
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leadler turned 35 12:00am
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Close Miscarriage
Went in for a checkup and they couldn't find my baby's heartbeat. I should have been around 12 weeks. The baby had died atleast two weeks before. This was my second miscarriage. I thought there was no way this was going to happen again, I'm devastated.
Treatments
- D&C Working / Worked
- I suppose it was alright, it was traumatic but not all that painful. I'm still experiencing some cramping and light spotting/discharge 15 days after the procedure.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've suffered from depression and anxiety all my life. I'm so tired.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Too Soon to Tell
- I don't believe I was on it along enough to tell.
- Effexor Too Soon to Tell
- Was only on for one day, made my heart and mind race all night, went off right away.
- Wellbutrin Too Soon to Tell
- I've been on it for five or six weeks..I really can't feel that it's working, but I've had a major blow to my life also.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Was on zoloft for several years and a high dose (200 and 300mg) worked for me..but kind of left me feelingless. I would feel sad/upset/angry etc inside but was just blank on the outside. Went off of it after about six years. I'm back on it(50mg, hoping to go to 100mg) now with wellbutrin
Open Anxiety
I believe I've had anxiety along with my depression most of my life. Got worse after finding my brother dead and having two miscarriages. Very hard to cope.
Treatments
- BuSpar Too Soon to Tell
- can't tell if it's working or not. I'm in such a funk it's difficult to know for sure.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- I hate it but I need it.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Took it in the past and it worked, gained a lot of weight. I'm on a lower dose now along with wellbutrin. Too soon to really tell if it's working now.
Open Pregnancy After Loss/Infertility
I have a 14 year old son and 11 year old daughter, both were healthy and uneventful pregnancies (and *many* years ago). Sine then I've had two, possibly three miscarriages. Beginning to lose hope..feel like I'm running out of time and fearing something may be wrong with me or my boyfriend. I want to have another baby so bad, not just any baby..but a baby with the man I love so much.
Open Infidelity
I moved 1000 miles away from home and married my highschool sweetheart when I was 19 years old. We had two children together and then he decided he wasn't happy after 11 years (I'm sure his girlfriend helped him w/ that decision. Now my boyfriend of over a year has cheated on me with his ex. I'm losing all faith.
Treatments
- Divorce Working / Worked
- I guess it worked. We've been divorced for 3 years now. It's been difficult, especially since I moved back close to our old hometown. I'll never get over it but the intense agony is finally gone.
Open Bereavement
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Not much to describe, just crying at about anything at anytime.
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Poetry Working / Worked
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Time Working / Worked
- Time actually does heal wounds as they say...saddly the scars are always with us.
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