marnmo's Journal

I have been struggling for the past several months to get help with seeing a doctor about my depression and all I was getting was dead end streets. I was taking the suggestions that were given to me and calling so many places for interviews and intakes and every time it just fell through. Not on my part as I knew something was wrong and I knew I needed help.

When you have no insurance it just does not seem that the help is there unless you want to commit suicide and that was not an option for me.

I felt that helplessness and all alone feeling, also I felt there was going to be no light at the end of the tunnel since I have been struggling for months to try to get help.

Well I finally got an appointment with a physician on a sliding scale and she seen me and we discussed what was going on. I finally have an anti depressant that I’m taking and I feel so much better these days. WOW - what a difference it does make when you have no more hope that you will not get help and you think you will have to live like this the rest of your life. I feel the difference.

So in saying I wish this upon know one! It is sad that it took this long to get help. The system is really messed up when you are trying to apply for insurance through the state. It takes up to 6 months to see one of their doctors just to declare you disabled and then you can receive insurance! WHAT?

I did not want to be declared disabled! I only wanted HELP with the way I was feeling. If I had been suicidal I would be gone by now because of the rejection I was getting. It is sad that when you have no information or contacts to get yourself help you finally get somewhere and they reject you because you either don’t have enough money or you don’t fall under their category for being a priority and you keep getting rejected! This honestly took too long!

I’m just happy I finally got it and I’m feeling much better and also looking forward to working once again!

Thank You Everyone who stood by my side and kept being positive about my outlook. I’m Truly Grateful to all who were here for me.