girlgonecrazy's Journal

today i have had a really good day, up until i went out, i saw clare and this bloke started takin the piss a little, it upset me a bit and i have been on a bit of a downer since, now im gettin a bit worked up about work, i shouldnt but that women makes me feel so bad about myself, like i can't do anythin right, i don't think that she does it on purpose, but i have horriable thoughts about her, that i know i shouldnt. i have been havin strange thoughts about me and people around me, i wish i just could let it go and forget. i dnt wanna be there anymore, but im scared of gettin a new job, i think what if it me, i dnt make friends that well anyway, im really slow i dnt get what people say. but i dnt like the settlin in process anyway, meetin new people and learnin new routines. so feelin abit down now.