christineurbanJOHN's Journal

When my dad died in NOV 2007 I was very forward with telling my mom I wanted him buried. Now with all of this going on I am so mad. My dad was cremated and we buried his ashes in the ground in a tackle box in the cemetary. I am so pissed off because I should of kept his ashes because what the hell happens when I move? I can never visit it, eventually the tackle box with decompose and be part of the ground and my dads ashes will be lost. I am SOOOOO angry that we didnt keep his ashes. My sister has my dads (part) and I am so bitter about it. I want my dads ashes, I dont want him in the ground!!! OMG it furiates me that I could pull out my hair and just crawl in a ball and die because it makes me sick to my stomach!! I know that it doesnt mean anything and that my dad is gone and it shouldnt matter where he is and that he is always around me blah blah....

But thats not the point, I want somewhere where I can go and look at something and think of his. AHHHHH! To bad they cant unbury it .. or can they? we already ordered a foot stone though...