Journal Entry for June 2, 2008
June 2, 2008 6:31pm
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lloyd999
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About Me
Hi im Lloyd, would like to think of myself as generaly a good hearted, kind, and honest person tho somewhat naive at times. Just a guy who's been struggling through life on a daily basis for to long now... Panic attacks and anxiety have been stumbling block for me and i guess iv let them stop me from doin all the so many things i always wanted to do... Goin to Uni, Relationships, Socialising and having a laugh, Just bein happy and being the person i always wanted to be. Feel iv got so much to offer but am forever unable to do so! Love to help other people in need if im able to... Also have had alota issues with my apearence over the years! Think im a pretty lonely guy at heart so would be happy to talk to or make friends with anyone! So feel free to add me... :)
Interests
Playing sports, listening to music, going to gym, goin out for a few drinks every now and then, relaxing (when im able to), walking, watching TV, Forensics, helping people with troubles in their lives, sleeping/daydreaming!, doin stuff, doin nothing!!!
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Recent Activity
Monday
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lloyd999 gave jasonfreeman a Hug 4:07pm
Hi mate, aint heard from u in a while, was wondering how your doing? Wishing u all the best fella, for…
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lloyd999 gave vivienne9443 a High Five 4:00pm
Hya how are you, how was the linkin park gig??…
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Sunday
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lloyd999 gave roseBud23 a Hug 6:28pm
Hey, well ta very much thank you! Hope yours has been a good one too :) Feel free to tell me all about…
Saturday
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lloyd999 gave mizhizzle a Hug 7:21pm
Hya, havent heard from you in a while... how are ya and things??…
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lloyd999 gave Aimeebaby a High Five 7:02pm
Cool, lol no its easy to say but try not to look at it like that. Sounds to me like your doin really…
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lloyd999 gave BrightEyes a Hug 6:55pm
Awww thanks sweetie, that means alot. Would like to hang out with you also... seems we have a bit in…
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lloyd999 gave BrightEyes a Hug 12:26pm
And the same goes for you hun! Thanx for the compliment but i really dont think that i am... do a lot…
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lloyd999 gave Aimeebaby a Good Luck wish 12:13pm
Meh was alright, nothing life changing! lol Well good luck with yours hun, dont be too nervous, im not…
Friday
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lloyd999 and bipolarcrys76 are now friends 7:38pm
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Journal
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Just some angry metal lyrics that i feel strongly about...
June 2, 2008 6:16pm
Song- This Is Now
Another memory and im asking myself,
why cant i let the past be the past,
once and for all take hold of the future,
and gain …
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Been told i have ADHD
May 11, 2008 3:43pm
Some good news, i guess! The appointment with Dr Molen actually went suprisingly well, compared to my last one! Found it it be quite helpfull and …
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Hugbook
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Hug
Hey hun, I was listening to this song.. and I was like "I HAVE TO SHARE THIS WITH LLOYD" So here you go http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9p8...
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Hug
Thanks! :) hope you had a good weekend sweetie, and a good day today! :) i'll let you know how the interview goes tomorrow, hope i don't mess it up x x
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Hug
I am pretty sure you would :D how are you doing today by the way... how is the weekend going?
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Hug
Awww thanks, sweetie. :) another thing to add to my anxiety next week ... i have an interview to be a trainee nursery nurse lol! great opportunity just well nervous. I know am gonna bugger it up lol. How's you day been today? x
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High Five
Happy weekend to u Lloydy my boy! ^_^
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
Had anxiety for a long time now, mostly in social situations, get really tense and just wanna go. Also have anxiety over my appearence, very insecure bout it and feel im bein thought of badly. Often feel tired and worn out as a result of my anxiety.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Just depends how anxious i am.
- Meditation Not Working
- Quit meds as i just seemed to be takin more and more, up to 100mg 5 tabs a day in the end.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Find it hard as im such a negetive pessimistic type person.
Close Panic Attacks
Often have them through fear of having them, can stop me goin out alot as im on edge of havin one alot of the time. Get tense and full of adrenaline which feels real bad. Feel worse around people cos they often dont understand whats wrong.
Treatments
- Meditation Not Working
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Works sometimes.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Would like it more often but there a high demand.
Open Depression
Have had bad depression in the past, but think im over the worst of it now.
Open Shyness
Im shy, thats it! lol
Open Breakups & Divorce
Parents divorced when i was 15, was a very bad time and a messy split. Couldnt understand the hatred they had for each other and got in the middle of it. My Dad in particular said some terrible things which i still find hard to forget, and we fell out bad. Both found new partners, both i really didnt like, nothings ever been the same since, and those early happy memories seem so far away!
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- Great way to zone out for me.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Found it good to speak to someone outside of the family.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Does help me to feel better
- Time Somewhat Helpful
- Thing have got better with time but will never ne the same.
Open ADHD / ADD
Just been diagnosed age 23! Hope to learn more about this disorder..
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