pattijo's Journal

wow. i think my belly grew overnite. i woke up this morning feeling huge and after i took my shower i looked in the mirror and i look huge too! my large and xtra large clothes are starting to feel snug too. esp the pants. i got some stuff on clearance from target and motherhood, i hope it fits better. i hope it comes  this week, too. i keep wearing the same 3 outfits over and over! eric is so excited that ill be 12 weeks this week. only because i told him thats when we can start having sex again. :) i cant believe its been since feb. i think thats the longest weve ever gone without doing it. we didnt even wait the 3 months after my c-section! ive just been too scared too. i read somewhere after 2 or more m/cs you should wait 3 months, plus ive been scared anyway, and havent really felt in the mood anyway. but i actually kinda think ill be ready soon. i was feeling a little frisky today. i think 2nd trimester is when you start getting the "randy" hormones, so its about the right time. only 3 more days to go! yay! and only about a month and a half until we can find out the sex! im extra excited about that! i really dont have a preferance, i just want to know. im a little scared if it is a girl, tho. mainly because im worried that shell have the same female problems as me, and i dont want her to have go thru all the troubles i have, esp because of MY dna. thats pretty much the only thing that would make me say i want a boy, and not a girl. other than that, i dont care what it is as long as he/she is healthy.