manxman's Journal

Hello Everyone.

I enjoyed quality time with my 2 youngest daughters yesterday. My STBX had asked the if they would like to go camping with her, him and his son from Friday to Sunday. She did not ask or even tell me.

I first heard on Wednesday from my youngest that she did not want to go and she also sad her sister didn't want to go either. Neither of them wanted to tell her.  ( They did not want to hurt hr feelings.

I told Becci (middle girl) to tell her mum I had planned a day out with them on Saturday ( I hadn't I wanted to watch the F.A. Cup Final) to meet Helen.

Anyway I took them shopping and spent too much money. but they enjoyed it.

Becci told me later that her mum was not happy with me. She said that everytime she wants to do something with them I stop her. Absolute rubbish I encourage them to spend time with her.

It was the girls who did not want to go and I am willing to take  the stick, when its warrented.

She is off the mark with this one. But in a way I felt good that it pissed her off.

She has not spoken or text the girls all weekend.

While I am on here, I nee some advce. How do I stop the feelings of jealousy.

She spends the weekend going out, Camping Jet skiing and rallying. I cook, clean and wash and pay the bills. I have the same stresses associated with 2 teenage and 1 preteen girls. She does not. She is acting like a single carefree woman, with no responsibilities.

I cannot do that I have responsibilities of a parent. She will only have them on her terms and infrequently. She has them when she is bored, or if he is busy and she will be left alone. She wants them as company.

We have not spoken for 2 weeks. We now olny talk through the girls.

People seem to look at me with sympathy. One of her friends said in a sypathetic way " Are you alright Eddie". I said Yes I am good.

I wish people would stop offering sympathy. I wish I could get a T Shirt with 'I KICKED THE WHORE OUT' written on it. It would save a lot of time.

Sometimes I wish she was dead. It would save a lot of trouble. Is that wrong?

I feel bad for saying that, but it is how I feel sometimes, especially when Memories of what she did come to me.

On a lighter subject. I am now on Facebook. I am Eddie Humphreys and picture is the one I am using here.

Any advice would be appreciated.

Thats all for now folks. See some of you on Facebook.

I am still waiting for her admit she has recieved the divorce papers (its been two weeks). She has it but does not want to admit it.

I am not bothered. The divorce is happening.

I will wait until my advocate sends her a reminder.

It all part if the game.

I thought that I had wriiten a journal after 16th April. Then I remeber I have spoken to some DSers who know whats going on.

Right Everyone here goes. If you remember the letter I found. Anyway I spoke to her the next day and told her that I was sorry I text her ( I had text her to tell her about the letter and how upset I was). She said rip it up and any other letters I found from her. I know we are separated, but that was a special letter. I did (and I regret it) rip it up.

I could not believe how heartless she was. We are separated, but she acts as if we were never married.

Thats just to update you.

There are things you find about your ex from other people. My youngest is a good source. She said tonight that her friends dad hit  (the friend) and STBX did nothing. My youngest was upset that she  just allowed him to hit his daughter. WTF.

She also drinks more, like tonight. My youngest said they were both drinking. I drink less now she has gone.

This is the real update:

There are some DSers who know this.

 I  now have a new partner. YES I have found someone.

I have known her for 7 years and we got together in March, but I was a friendship. It is now a romance. We get on so well. She is helping me throught this divorce and will wait for me.

Her name is Helen (Lucy She is so good for me). I will say more later

I recieved a letter from my advocate saying that the court has sent out the apllication for divorce. She said she has not recieved it. She is lying. I want this divorce soooooooooooooo much.

Later folks

I will update you later

Your comments are welcome.

Eddie