wjztrimmer's Journal

I was having a good day today. I got a lot accomplished at work, J came by and we went for a walk on the waterfront holding hands the whole way. We had a good talk about our relationship and she was encouraging and hopeful. That was good.

I got home and because the bastard lives just down the street, coming home usually sucks for me. By the time I got home, I was upset. I didn't take it out on anyone or anything, I just let her know that I was upset. We were invited to a friends house for a BBQ and I took a bit of time for myself before I went over.

I was feeling good by the time I got there. About an hour into the BBQ, our neighbor comes and sits right next to me. She starts a conversation and says, "my husband is an air traffic controller. your wife said you had a friend who's an air traffic controller." I almost lost it. I don't have a friend who's an air traffic controller, my wife had an affair with an air traffic controller (i didn't say this out loud). J walks away and I sit there, pissed that I can't seem to escape this mess.

The other night I went to the movies with my buddy and we watched some cheesy, bubble gum, british comedy/romance. The antagonist in the movie is a guy who's good looking, successful and runs marathons. The guy my wife had an affair with is good looking, successful and runs marathons. I can't escape.

I wonder how long I can last before I go off the deep end. My world has gotten incredibly small. I want a bigger world. New neighbors. A new house. A new neighborhood. I want my kids to go to a school where I won't run into the idiot. I want to go to the grocery store and not see his car in the parking lot. I want to know that my wife isn't running into him all over town. 

I've seriously considered asking him to move. My buddies have his phone number and their waiting for me to give the nod. They'll also ask him to move. I want to make his life as uncomfortable as he's made mine. Bastard!