craziecarebear's Journal

I ams still in California and I LOVE IT!!! I don't want to go home but..... I have to!! Massachusetts is my home and it always will be. That is what is really frustrating. I am soooo.... going to miss my Dad and my cousins out here! I just got to meet them all for the first time and they are so close and lots of fun to be with.

I am just realizing that even though I have been without a father in my life  Physically he was in my life through letters and phone that is what I am used to now that I am can't see my self actually living here and being around my family I never knew!!

This is why it sooo... Frustrating. I know that I will get through this and that my life will be ok now that I finally fullfilled meeting my Dad and seeing where I was born, this is not my home and it sucks that decisions to start over have to be this hard. California is sooo... Far away and I have not even seen the best of it yet the really warm wheather in the summer I will be gone by then!!!