MidnightRendezvous's Journal

So.........

Lately I havent really been "myself". I just feel like I'm floating along in life in general. Literally I lose hunks and spaces of time and before I know it HOURS have passed. Where on earth do they go?

Its not like I'm on anything that would do that to me...grrr......

I hate it when I'm just sooo spacey. And to those who I havent been so great keeping up with lately I appologize immensly. I cant even keep up with myself it seems..

Health is...well...it is what it is..I just have to deal with it on a daily basis... but I'm DOING IT

(though if I could physically get in a boxing match with my stomach I would love to beat it's ass!)

I'm still pushing, doing what I "have" to. Doing the right things, though the entire time having my destructive thoughts and demons dance in my head yelling at me.

I think fate has brought someone apon me. Weird I know....but I had this group find me and I listened to one of their songs (yes....on "whorespace") and HOLY HELL! Its asif Cordelia is living inside of me. Like-spirits roaming at the same time on different continents. This one song "Woe is me" IS ME! Even including the hysterectomy pills I had stared at for HOURS a week ago. I got little chills bc EVERYTHING in that song is as if I wrote it myself. Age, floating, destructiveness, body.....

so yeah

check it out...

its me in a nutshell

http://www.myspace.com/cordeliafellowes