Thursday, February 28, 2008
Sooo busy studying, I cant breathe mst of the time. 1 more day for Velvet skyes to be open. I havent reacted yet, but we shall see tomorow. Some one …

is feeling Bad
I am recently divorced for the 2nd time. I can't let go yet, my head is spinning. I never wanted to get here again. I teach self empowerment classes and feel like a complete joke, when I am reduced to puddles. I am passionate about Womens rights and if I can just get that thru my own head I would be ok. I have a problem (ok big) problem with boundaries, I have none an he of all people knows it. I need someone to talk to that can understand, I just cant let go yet. I know it doesnt make sense. My friends dont understand, they all think he's using me. I dont trust him, thats clear but I dont understand why I cant let go.
I am a Celtic Reconstructionalist and fall under the umbrella term "Pagan" I have been in the Pagan community for about 20 yrs now. Things people know about me, I LOVE PURPLE, fairies, Angels, anything considered New Age, reading, writing, dancing, movies, going out in general. I dont drink very much, if at all. I am Diabetic, which doesnt stop me from doing what i want unless I forget about taking myself.( I tend to forget about myself a lot lately)
Sooo busy studying, I cant breathe mst of the time. 1 more day for Velvet skyes to be open. I havent reacted yet, but we shall see tomorow. Some one …
my ex pushed this divorce thru at amazing speed and I am an emotional puddle some days. Some days are good if I can thru it without crying. I belong to a couple of Womans groups so I have support but I dont think they can relate to how I feel so down at 1 momentand then I am ok the next. He is still in The picture, claiming he wants to be my best friend and still wanting all the benefits he had before. My head is spinning.
I have been Diabetic for 10 yrs, the last 2 on Insulin. I notice my moods have an effect as well. Looking for support.