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Okay its going on 4:30 pm on Tuesday, not a good day at all. Im more depressed then ever. I think I over reacted yesterday and kicked the b/f out. Oh well, I guess it's time to move on. I have to keep thinking positive and learn to love myself rather than to rely on someone else to make me happy I need to be happy with myself first. Until then I don't need to be in a relationship. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Im so upset with my decisions but I do not want to be in that type of relationship any longer. I will be fine. I have to keep telling myself as each day goes by that I will get stronger. I have to keep telling myself that im not depressed and that I will be fine. I do not need a man in my life at this point however I already miss the companionship however the fighting I can do without. I will find someone when the time is right. I have to keep telling myself I am not lonely.
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Add your supportWell, its now 7:20 pm. I have accomplished extreme cleaning of the living room and gettin the laudry caught up. Whoooooohooooooooo. I feel a little better. I now have a tension headache that is sreaming for attention. grrrrrrrrrr Now i'm wondering what to do next. I have so much stuff to do I am overwhelmed. I need to start getting my things together for the big doctors appointment tomorrow and I need to write down all the emotions etc. that I have been experiencing since starting the effexor er. I have so much to do and feel like so little time to do it in. I make a list to do a mile long and seem to only get mayeb one thing done. Then I feel like I havent done anything (however I did clean and do laundry so I did do something). I am still practicing this positive attitude thingy out. LOL I have had a few mood swings in the process of cleaning. My mind has been racing. I keep telling myself its almost bedtime. I feel so worn out. I have no energy left. But, I have to keep going. I seem to procrastinate alot. NOT A GOOD THING. Then when it comes time to do whatever it is I get so stressed out because I have to rush rush rush. OK, I am gonna go back to doing something to occupy my time for a few more hours or else I will be so tired I can't go or will feel that way at least.
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It's okay to feel lonely even if it's not the best feeling in the world. I never had any thing nice to say about myself either. I always felt I was never good enough for anything,worthless,the empty inside feeling. I never cared what happened to me,could have died the next day and never would have thought twice about it. I figured no one else would either.It took over 25 years to get my head together. Thank God for meds.
I was Dx very late in life,but I did learn it was better for me not to be in a relationship.My husband died 8 yrs ago. ( Bad Marriage )Lots of verbal abuse which didn't help my mental state any. I decided I would be by myself and lonely then with someone and miserable. ( It works for me ):)It takes time to heal,to be well and to love yourself.Be patient,It'll all work out. Everything happens for a reason, thats my moto. Hugs
Cairo
Cairo