sarahmacc's Journal

hi there

its 8pm as i write this

have been keeping busy today washing tidyin up and packing the house ready for the moving date which we havent got yet and where we moving to,but only three weeks to go before we go to court and then a matter of a few weeks to move so starting now to get ready then it not so much of a panic

kids are finding it hard as we have lived here since they were little so trying to get them to understand well we just have to keep trying to help them adjust again to things

feeling a bit blue this morning not slept again last nite just cant find a sleep pattern or anything to help me sleep, i  think its due to stress with everything going on at the moe but i dont know what to do and i dont want to start taking meds to help me sleep already on anti drepressions drugs which arent helping me and those just send my in to space and i have no control of myself its like floating in space

i just wont to be back to being a normal wife mother and a career woman which i know its never going to happen to me and have a normal life again

hi new to all this, but it might help me to write it all down.

 my name is sarah and i am 35 with 3 kids and a wonderful hubby 1 dog and 6 cats

at the moment i feel a little down in the dumps as i have to quit my job due to ill health and am losing my house again due to my illness and the doctors are wanting to mess me about again

i feel as if they just want to do it to mess me about more and nobody cares what if it all goes wrong

i am trying to stay postive for myself and the family but its getting really hard now after two years of it all