Reborn
July 4, 2008 6:59pm
I was just looking back through my journal to the very first entry - 13th March when my life was forever altered. Nearly four months have …
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alexana’s Profile
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About Me
Hi there and thanks for reading my profile. I'm 46, married, no kiddies (unless you count a nudnick for a cat). I live in the UK, although originally I'm from NY - got exported in '89 and haven't been back since. Lived in the Middle East for a few years then returned to the UK. I originally joined DS for the MS group and have since joined two more, Infidelity and Depression. The MS because - yep, you guessed it - 'cause I've got it and ain't dealing with it very well. The Infidelity group because my ratbag of a husband has a penchent for other women - or rather 'collecting' other women's phone numbers, ect. A situation which we're trying to deal with but which I fear may never be resolved. And lastly the Depression group 'cause between the hubby and the bloody MS, I'm not always a happy bunny. I've gotten myself into a bit of a rut with these two issues and I'm desperately trying to find my way out. Problem is in order for me to do that I have to crawl out from under my self imposed exile and learn how to come to grips with the way my life is today. On a lighter note, I've met some wonderful people on DS and hope to continue to do so. Now for the interesting stuff... Happy to be part of the 'TROLL BUSTING TEAM"'
Interests
Things I enjoy are photography (big time!) http://atheana.smugmug.com/, computers, music, writing, mostly anything involving creativity and nature/wildlife.
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Recent Activity
Wednesday
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alexana replied to legalpenguin’s discussion post suicide in the Breakups & Divorce support group 5:22am
Yes, you're not alone in having these thoughts. When the H walked I felt as you do, nothing to live for.…
Monday
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alexana replied to bethy99’s discussion post Acupuncture in the Multiple Sclerosis (MS) support group 3:11pm
I did a full year's course, interspersed with Chinese herbs and wish I could say it made a difference,…
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alexana gave PinkyFae a Hug 3:07pm
And a hug back atchya Pinkie, definitely - hop onboard the troll busting train :-)…
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alexana replied to KittyMz’s discussion post Does God really exist? in the Breakups & Divorce support group 11:55am
I don't think there is what one might call a benevolent god out there, but there is definitely things…
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Journal
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Journal Entry for April 5, 2008
April 5, 2008 8:54am
I'm still here, just haven't the energy to write in a journal - that and I'm fed up with the negativity.
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Journal Entry for March 30, 2008
March 30, 2008 6:14pm
Thank you to everyone for your comments, caring and support.
Today started off the worst so far - physically then mentally. I got up this …
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Journal Entry for March 29, 2008
March 29, 2008 3:59pm
This entry is not going to be another 'letter' to him. Instead it will be about me and my day, the amazing support network I've …
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Journal Entry for March 28, 2008
March 28, 2008 11:02am
Two days after you left
I’m still here. Sat at the side of the bed last night with all the pills in one hand and a glass …
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hope your doing well sunshine
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You're... My friend, My companion, Through good times and bad, My friend, My buddy, Through happy and sad, Beside me you stand, Beside me you walk, You're there to listen, You' re there to talk, With happiness, With smiles, With pain and tears, I know you'll be there, throughout the years! You are all good friends to me and I a am grateful to you. Send this to all your good friends online to show them you are friends. If you get this back from: 1 person - you are lonely 2 people - you have a couple friends, but not many 3 people - you have a few friends... 4 people - you have some friends... 5 people - you have several friends!! 6 people - you have many friends!! 7 people - you are SOOOO loved!!!
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Have a sunny Monday - can I come trollbusting with ya?
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Its good to hear from you again, take care
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You are my friend and I hope you know that's true. No matter what happens I will stand by you. I'll be there for you whenever you need. To lend you a hand to do a good deed. So just call on me when you need me my friend. I will always be there even to the end. Forward this promise to all your friends to show your friendship and watch who sends it back.
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Support Groups
Close Multiple Sclerosis (MS)
Type: Progressive Relapsing MSDx'd in '95 and for better or worse, have chosen not to take any drugs. I gorge myself on vitimins and supplements, stay away from foods containing saturated fat, try and get at least a little bit of exercise in each day (not always successfully). The MS has gotten progressively worst over the years, in particular since 2004 when we lost our furbaby to bastard cancer. I'm now trying to come to grips with the idea of using forearm crutches (up til now it's been a cane and that is a joke).
Close Depression
Between having MS and a philanderer for a husband, I'm not always a happy puppy and find sometimes just getting through a day to be a challenge in itself.
Open Infidelity
Married for 13 years to a man who during all this time has 'collected' other women, or their phone numbers and gd knows what else. In April 2007 I found out he placed an advert in a singles paper and since then it's been a slow road to recovery. He's been to see a counsellor but I have my doubts as to weather he's on the straight and narrow.
Open Breakups & Divorce
Made redundant, recycled and replace after 15 years of marriage.
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