GIVE UP
i give up totally...im not gonna do anythig coz even if i try to do something its never enough for step-daddy and mother... i dont know i can …
my full name is hannah rebekah ferry i am at college i wanna be a youth worker and would love to specialise in GLBT youth problems or i want to be a teaching assistant.im genrally a happy person tho i have off days. i have a *me* problem. i think no matter what i do i will always be crap i am working on this and try to love myself i just cant see anything good in myself but im trying. i love my friends and if they believe in me they have me for life lol im scared off losing the people i care for and the people i care for... i have preoblems with my mum she accepts and supports me but not the person i am with =(...at college i am the quiet one unless you pull my strings in a bad way and make me fight with you...BUT im a lover not a fighter...im a hippie although to look at me you woyuldnt think so lol..at times i can be gothic but most of the time i kinda stick out from everyone else...i hav always been excentric but hey who isnt these days lol...and my favourite word is bubble..if you wanna know more messages are good lol xxx
hmmm mainly my studies because i wasted a year last year doing cheffing *groans* am on the right course now tho. im interested in art it helps me to relax, i cant dance properly but i love to dance around my room. i like writing fanfiction stories message me and i will give you the web adress you can find my stories on. all my fanfiction stories are for CSI is the only thing on tv i watch.i lke to listen to music and thats what i spend most of my time doing... like any genre i like anything from westlife to ACDC lol. and everything in between. i love to sing (badly) . i am scred of 3 main things losng the people i love, spiders and silence. ^.^ if yu wanna knw more message me.xxx
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i give up totally...im not gonna do anythig coz even if i try to do something its never enough for step-daddy and mother... i dont know i can …
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does anyone else ever get this? where you just want to pack up and leave you behind...fresh start?...fresh people? i mean i dont exactly wanna lose …
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! *JUMPING AND SCREAMING AND WELL WISHING*
Happy Birthday, thx for the remark on my pic!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
=0 that is shoking! i always opened them in the morning so i can mess around witht the stuff for the rest of the day =]
bless =], =0 i cant believe u dont open prezzies in the morning =0, i'm up at like 5am to see what i got =D
i came out only recently i am happier now i have told people i can now be myself but my dad lives in spain (mum and dad split)and i cant get in contact with him and he is homophobic..am kinda half out at college some people know but id dint tell them not sure if im ready to be fully out yet
not being able to find a GF thats a challenge right? i hate being at college sometimes!!!
yea im in college am 17 years old and am proud but i get a bit paranoid because although the people i have told have told me their fine with it they kinda leave me out and the only person who would openly talk to me about it has left i miss him
i only just came out but iknew way befor ii came out wanna help others and i wanna work with youth offenders when im older
well my mum is getting re married soon-ish. the guy is nice but me and my little brother have issues with our step sister...she was not brought up in the same way as we were and therfore makes us feel kinda bad when she gets what she wants and we feel sorta jelous because if we did half the things she does we would have got shouted at and would lose our dinner but she gets it hmmm is this natural or not?
i knw its kinda minor but my cousin used to come into my room at night and he wouldnt rape me but her would touch me and rub himself on me it made me sick..i told my mates and they told the school nurse who told the police and social services and now im by law not allowed any contact with him....want to help others is part of the reason i waant to be a socail worker because ill always remember what mine did for me.
hmmm what can i say my dad moved to spain only speak to him on msn and he is homophobic isnt that fun?
i get it when i dnt wear leather shoes and when my clothes rub my bare skin ie waist
im not my little bro is tho... hes either on the laptop playing runescape or boombang or on his ds playing pokemon...i have that for gameboy but play it like once in 3 months lol
my great uncle, my uncle and me are gay and my bst mate nate.
im scared of upsetting people or disappointing them, im scared of cows and horses, losing tyhe people iu care about, im scared of being totally alone condependancy(?)